Urrrgggg... Urrrrggggg...

dreamer • 23 December 2011 at 7:41 PM

I can't do thissss... *slams head against wall*

I don't know the word... I feel so... What's the word... Vulnerable?...

It's Christmas Vacation, so I should be loving life right now... But I'm not...

It's about this certain someone I've been talkin' about... And I really like him... After I saw him for the last time today, the last time in ten days, while looking out the window on my bus... I put my head back and let tears run down my face...

Raaaaaahhhh. I'm so pathetic, aren't I? I wish I wasn't such an... Umm... Emotional type of girl... And Im usually not, until it comes to this type of stuff...

Now I don't need anyone to give me their "life stories" or to tell me I'll get over it. During Thanksgiving Break, we were out for 4 days, and even time that short was nearly the death of me, metaphorically...

So I don't need you people to put me down, in this sense. I just want some fun and easy ways to waste my time and to keep him off my mind for a while. >-<

thepells4 • 23 December 2011 at 8:52 PM

Wow. You people really don't care about my weaknesses, do you? ._.

balletninja • 23 December 2011 at 8:55 PM

@dreamer I just never saw this forum.

You should try re-modeling your cove.
Keeps my brain occupied 😊

dreamer • 23 December 2011 at 9:27 PM

@Balletninja


Hah, I actually do like rearranging my cove. xD

No matter what, I never get it perfect enough for my liking.

I'm going for some last-minute Christmas shopping with my mom in a while, so I'll have something to do around 10 pm. That's when I have nothing to do except sit in my room on my laptop and type and type and type on Word and not even know what's flowing through my fingers and onto the keyboard. It's a really good feeling, actually.

Sorry. I got kinda carried away back there. x3

But yeah, I usually have lots to do late and night, and so little time.

Deleted • 23 December 2011 at 9:48 PM

@dreamer


I used to really like somebody. I stupidly occupied myself trying to look prettier....
Fat waste of my time, wasn't worth him.
When i'm bored I watch videos on YouTube, like the funny ones from Smosh, and few others, record a video with my sister. Then I play some games on my IPad, try to focus on writing my new book(fun to me because I control everything 😈)
The best thing would be to gather up some friends and seriously just get outta the house. Even if it just outside at your house.
Manhunt is a real serious and hysterical game >:}

dreamer • 24 December 2011 at 1:57 PM

@Iridescent

I'm actually on Youtube right now! I freaking love Smosh. 😊 Sometimes I go on their site and look around on the Smosh Pit, some of those are hilarious. xD I also like looking up random songs, you find something new every day. 😸

Sometimes I text on my phone or listen to Jessie J on my Mp3 player as well. I also write my own songs and type long, boring stories. AND I seriously have to work on a project for school. xD

1 day down, 9 to go~

Deleted • 24 December 2011 at 2:21 PM

@dreamer lol yeah! XD I love the ones with bloopers most of all😊 I check YouTube everyday to see what's new 😊 whatever's not on my IPod, I can count on YouTube to find it😃


Btw- does the boy like you back?(you don't have to answer of you don't want to^^") I'm just curious, I've never had a oy like me 😋 the boys I know all go by height, and I pretty much tower over all of them xP

dreamer • 24 December 2011 at 2:35 PM

@Iridescent Same here X3 Only my laptop screen is messed up. And the mouse on my laptop is broken, I need to hold the wire at a certain angle or else it won't work. X3 But yes, I'm always on Youtube now! My dad's overpotective, so a while ago I never went on yourube because he doesn't allow me to and he always checked my computer history. But he's left me alone for a while so I go on all the time. X3

As for your question, I HIGHLY doubt it. Actually, I KNOW he doesn't. At least, I'm pretty sure, you never know. But I know *other* people who like me. Ad a couple years ago I lived in another town, and liked a different boy, who DID like me back. Haven't seen him in yeas. So that's over. But I always get so emotional with this stuff when I know I shouldn't. I'm pathetic. D: XD

Deleted • 24 December 2011 at 3:19 PM

@dreamer I make sure to erase all of my browsing history if I watch smash videos xD and anything else I probably get in trouble for watching O.O

Hey, you never know, I bet he likes you back, some boys hide their emotions well;) and you're not pathetic! I am, because I get all weird when I try to impress a boy....usually end up looking super stupid XP