I'm gonna sound ridiculous for posting this...

dreamer • 25 December 2011 at 11:54 PM

...But I really want a boyfriend. >-< It's more than just that, though.

I only came on to EggCave again tonight because I was lying in bed with my new mp3 player, staring blankly at the wall, feeling lonely and a bit depressed.

For some reason, during school vacations when I don't see my friends or crushes for a long time, I get the feeling that I'm always alone, depressd, and too worried about what people think of me to ever open my mouth.

I don't want a boyfriend just for popularity. It's not for romance as much as it is comfort for me. I just need someone to greet me every morning. Someone that I can share my stories with. Someone I can hug and tease and not worry about getting embarrassed by. Most importantly, someone who makes me feel like I'm not a loser, who treats me with respect, and just gives me the happiness ad love that I want.

Yes I have friends, but I just feel like I'm ready to have a boy in my life.

Now don't go bashing because you say I'm 'too young'. I'm a lot different from that. I don't want to be in-and-out of relationships all the time, I just want one boyfriend. I'm just... Different. I just feel... Ready, I don't know.

So, I dragged myself out of bed to come and post this. Comments, questions, anything you'd like to add? I'm open for it. I'd like a good conversation. That's what I'm here for.

Deleted • 25 December 2011 at 11:55 PM

@Dreamer

Does it evolve Pervland?

dreamer • 25 December 2011 at 11:56 PM

@Chloekins

















-_-

Deleted • 25 December 2011 at 11:57 PM

@Dreamer

Does this mean I'm done with Pervland? XD

Deleted • 25 December 2011 at 11:57 PM

@dreamer @chloekins im always in pervland, it comea natrally. XD but i still havent done *it* or even hugged a boy. XD i dont plan to for years either.

dreamer • 26 December 2011 at 12:03 AM

@Chloekins No more Pervland. None of it. I typed all my feelings in to this topic. Can you not talk about Pervland?

@Deannablanco3 I've told myself that I'm *NEVER* gonna do that. Not even to the day I die. Just disgusting to me. X3 I jsut want a boyfriend that makes me feel like I'm not alone, you know what I'm saying?

Deleted • 26 December 2011 at 12:04 AM

@Deannablanco3

Nah, Pervland is a prison that Dreamer owns xD

dreamer • 26 December 2011 at 12:07 AM

@Chloekins And you were the prisoner. XD

Deleted • 26 December 2011 at 12:08 AM

@Dreamer You say that now. (; ;D xD

And quite frantically my boyfriend makes me feel like a loser everyday.

*Most* guys are jerks, so it might be hard.

😋

dreamer • 26 December 2011 at 12:16 AM

@Dawnie But this is 6th grade. xD

Every day I've noticed that I got more and more attracted to several boys in my gade. I guess it's just that time. X3 And there are still SOME good boys. If everyone was a jerk, we'd all be dead and living in our own flames at this point. The world works the way it wants to work to make most people fair and happy. But others take advantage of it. And that's when they end up in a disaster.

Deleted • 26 December 2011 at 12:21 AM

@dreamer sixth grade guys are mean too. I was in sixth grade once too YA KNOW XD

Yes true, some guys AREN'T jerks, but most are.

People say all the "nice" guys are taken, but they are either not opening their eyes, or those guys are still in the friend zone. xD

Just don't get in an abusive relationship.

Been there, done that.

Well not do-

Whatever you get what I mean xD

You don't want that.

Be careful my friend. (:

boxofcrayons • 26 December 2011 at 12:23 AM

@dreamer

I felt the same for a long time. So then I went and got into a relationship with a guy I kinda liked when he showed some interest in me. What I discovered is that simply 'having' a boyfriend feels good, for the first few days or weeks, but once you are over the first thrill it just is a part of your life. I'm sure you have heard this thousands of times (I know I have) but you truly just have to wait for the right guy to walk into your life. The guy I went out with was a major jerk, (and I'm sad to say I knew that going into it) but I just wanted to know what it felt like to be in a relationship. I do now, and it's nothing special. And now I've written you a novel... sorry if it doesn't make much sense. >.<

dreamer • 26 December 2011 at 12:24 AM

@Dawnie

Well yeah, I know some mean boys. xD But still. THey're not begging for 'it' yet.

I'm usually not too friendly with boys, since I used to hate 'em all. But obviously, not anymore. XD

I'd hate an abusive relationship. I wouldn't even want a 24/7, just a boy I see a lot at school and that I hang out with at night sometimes. So a boyfriend, but also just a friend, both at the same time. To listen to me like a friend and love me like a boyfriend. If you get what I'm saying. xD

Deleted • 26 December 2011 at 12:29 AM

@dreamer Well after too long they are had to get away from.

Jacob hasn't left me alone for so freakin' long and I want to punch him.

You won't get a guy like that the first time though, I guarantee it. Not to be harsh or anything, it does take time to find the right guy. Y'know? Most 'boyfriends' don't WANT to listen to their girlfriends out of sheer Laziness. Apparently losing brain cells because of pixels is better, and makes you a man. I'll never understand it.

unebra • 26 December 2011 at 12:31 AM

@dreamer

you cant trust guys i mean i just got out of a realtionship with my bf we were really happy together we told eachother every thing until he chose another girl over me then we got back together i mean im not saying that u cant trust all guys its just MOST of them

do u have a crush on anybody that u could hook up with

whitefall • 26 December 2011 at 12:32 AM

Get some friends. xD
oh god, not Pervland again *_*

Deleted • 26 December 2011 at 12:33 AM

@Whitefall ......Bedstuff.


xD

seastar43 • 26 December 2011 at 12:35 AM

@dreamer
A boyfriend is not just for comfort. When you start dating there should be only one reason for it. And that is to find someone who will be your spouse, love you til Death Do You Part, to be you soul mate, your husband and the one who will make a good father to your (future)children. So if you think you are 'ready' to start dating (finding your someone) then that's a very reason but I'd suggest at 16 and up

whitefall • 26 December 2011 at 12:35 AM

@dawnie
xD Lol.
There are children on this site.

Deleted • 26 December 2011 at 12:36 AM

@Dreamer

That's my "it" nickname xD
I'm a prisoner...still?!

Deleted • 26 December 2011 at 12:36 AM

@Whitefall THEY SHOULDN'T UNDERSTAND WHAT IT MEANS XD

If they do...

Bad mommy and Daddy xD


Oh god.

xD

smilies • 26 December 2011 at 12:37 AM

@dreamer Me too =_= Exactly the same, I swear X) I have no life >o<

dreamer • 27 December 2011 at 9:04 PM

@Unebra I actualy do really like this one person... But Idk how he feels of me.
I don't expect to have a boyfriend for like 4 years straight or everything, evedryone breaks up. I just want to have one so I know I'm not alone. (:

@seastar43 Till Death Do You Part...? Dude. I'm not looking for someone to propose to me or anything. xD No one ever dates one person and marries them, you need to go through lots of relationships so you know what type of people to look for or stay away from.

Young relationships are never 'serious', just something to prepare you for a serious thing. And I just want that feeling before things get too serious. ^^But yes I do feel ready, I'm not childish or girly about it, I just want someone with me. I really do feel ready. 😸 It would be nice...

cafe • 27 December 2011 at 9:12 PM

I know exactly how you feel.

I'm sixteen and still feel it

It's not that you're lonely, it's that there is a part in your heart that nothing seems to fill. Like, how you have a craving, and no amount of food will make you full until you have it. [Best way to describe it]

You can have all the friends in the world, love them with all your heart, and heck, have many boy friends, but the best way I can sum it up is that you're wanting someone who you can touch in an intimate way [Not sexual intimate, close intimate], someone who you can put all your hope into without the threat of you getting in a fight with your best friend and her blabbing your deepest fears to the next person in rage.

You want love.


Simple as that
c:

Deleted • 27 December 2011 at 9:21 PM

@dreamer you don't sound ridiculous. I say it to myself sometimes. Then I remember nobody likes me that much 😋 That and I like being alone. I liked a boy once. He was a real jerk, and never noticed me. And I never noticed the boy that liked me.
I want someone to like me.
But I'm antisocial XP
And I'm starting to enjoy being alone better.....
Yep, I'm a type of hypocrite, I just don't know what I want anymore XP

But I'm getting suspicious, my sister was browsing through pics on my IPad, and kept trying to get me to tell who I like. When I said I don't like anybody, she said yes you do, you've got a bajillion love pictures on your IPad!(I had them on there for my Tumblr....then I realized I couldnt upload them and forgot to delete them X3)
I kept telling her I didn't like anybody, but she said yes I do, and she knows I used to like a boy named Thomas.
I replied in second grade xD
Then she said she knows he used to like me too because he used to call me everyday.
I retaliated with 2nd grade again xD

seastar43 • 28 December 2011 at 7:53 PM

@dreamer
yup. your right you have to go through a lot of people to find what type is for you, but when you establish that what's next? well then you get more serious (and this is years long process) but when you find the right one, your prefect someone do you just date them forever until you get bored? How sad! No! you need to be able to do everything I posted about before. In the end you get married to the perfect one and live happily ever after not just date get bored then throw them away. Dating is not for the entertainment it is a serious mature process of the heart and so you need to reflect and think, are you sure that this is the right time for you to be dating?