I think I may be going goth without even trying... A little heavy on the makeup?

dreamer • 27 December 2011 at 4:12 PM

Well, it's kinda complicated, but. I have this... Alter-ego, if that's what you want to say.

First there's me. Danielle. Just a somewhat normal person, shy, insecure, with a huge imagination. A dreamer.

And then my alter ego; A girl known as Dani. A celebrity, actually, a singer. A 12-year-old singer with an amazing voice and loads of black eyeshadow who is an instant sensation to the world, with a crazy personality and a big heart. She's not afraid to be who she is and she always takes risks, living every day like it's her last.

I've kept "Dani" inside of my mind all the time. Of course, she's not real. She's not me, on the outside. She's locked up in a prsion cell in my mind who plans to excape. And I *could* be her one day, if I try hard enough.

But sometimes I hate the fact that I'm NOT Dani. That I'm not out there. That I'm not talented. That I can't put myself out there and that I don't live every day like my last.

So I just spent about an hour putting on black eyeshadow and mascara, covering some spots with powder, and putting my hair in a messy ponytail. And I still look nothing like her.

So what do you think? What's gotten in to me? Can anyone help or possibly encourage me? T-T