erm.......if you get mad easy and/or hates me, please DO NOT LOOK. i dont want a giant arguement.

Deleted • 23 February 2012 at 10:38 PM

Well.....i noticed many others talking about there feelings....so i suppose i should talk about mine. first thing is, if you have a weak heart or get mad easy, dont even read this. i dont want a bunch of people getting mad and/or upset over anything i have posted.
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well, first you need to know a little about my history to understand why exactly i feeling and when i first joined the site acted so cold the way i am/did. i used to be told often that i 'wasnt good enough' or that i was 'ugly' or 'worthless' until i started to avoid other people. even starting calling our species just 'them' while i was 'me' (i very recently stopped doing this.), so i dont relly have that much confidence or social skills. i used to be VERY violent to everyone, such as if a person touched me i would attack them, and i still do that sometimes. i have never had a really true friend, but i do have someone who is very close to my heart, or did until yesterday.
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i feel just sort of.......upset. angry. but sad at the same time. the person who i was very close to decided to leave me for some 'normal' people yesterday, so there went my already low confidence. i just feel like im the bad person, that its all my fault, but at the same time i just want to punch a random person in the face. any advice? and i dont mean the whole' just be yourself and you will get friends' thing because i most defently cannot do that because i fear it. sooo.........go ahead.

Deleted • 23 February 2012 at 10:40 PM

You need a hug...*hugs* ☹️

Deleted • 23 February 2012 at 10:42 PM

@brendensteel i dont like being touched. *draws a circle* no one exept me is allowed into this circle, unless there is fire, someone dieing, or extreme amounts of blood.

hayz • 23 February 2012 at 10:43 PM

@joker

Can I **** her *** so badly that the ********************************************************* ***************** *********************** *************? 😊 'Cause I find it amusing they haven't been ***************** already.

Deleted • 23 February 2012 at 10:43 PM

@joker *Air hugs you* 😊

Deleted • 23 February 2012 at 10:45 PM

@hayz okay......feel free. ill even tell you were they live if you want.
@brendensteel *deals with it* okay.......

hayz • 23 February 2012 at 10:45 PM

@joker Wait-- Not even Daka? D'awwwww
Daka: I'm actuall--
Me: FEEL SAD!
Daka: Bu--
Me: FEEL SAD RIGHT NOW OR I'LL THROW YOU INTO THE COOKIE ARENA!

Deleted • 23 February 2012 at 10:46 PM

@hayz claw is close friends with daka, i am not. Claw: true true.

isa • 23 February 2012 at 10:47 PM

@Joker That's exactly like me. I'm sorry, I know how much it sucks, although I can't say I know how it "feels". My friend and I made up. Good luck...

hayz • 23 February 2012 at 10:48 PM

@joker But Claw's part of your BRAIN. You made her. So therefore, she is part of you, and you are also close friends with Daka-- OHMAIGAWD! NOW I'M TALKING LIKE HIM! *shoots self in the head with an iPod touch app* ..Well, that didn't work.

Deleted • 23 February 2012 at 10:50 PM

@hayz .............shes a alternete personality. not me. she is who i want to be.
@saix its not likely in my case.....

hayz • 23 February 2012 at 10:51 PM

@joker

She is your would-be self. If you believe and have faith in what you do, your dreams will come true!

Deleted • 23 February 2012 at 10:53 PM

@hayz i dont have belief and such. i learned a very long time ago that that rarely does anything.

phoenixfox • 23 February 2012 at 10:55 PM

@joker I know exactly how that feels. You'll find your niche. It may take time. Of course what is the standarc of "normal" that you're comparing yourself to?

Deleted • 23 February 2012 at 10:56 PM

@phoenixfox people who can relate themselfs to others of there speices with ease. i have been waiting a very long time for my niche.

phoenixfox • 23 February 2012 at 10:57 PM

@joker Do you mind an inquiry as to how old you are?

isa • 23 February 2012 at 10:58 PM

@joker That's unfortunate. Smilies says, "In cases like these, retreat to the Internet! 😃"
... I wouldn't listen to her. I never find her advice very useful.
But I'm sure you'll be able to make plenty of friends here. NO ONE will call you useless or ugly here, promise. (If they do, I'll have them reported and make sure their face gets rearranged for you .x.)

hayz • 23 February 2012 at 10:59 PM

@joker
Because you stopped believing. Life is tough. It throws obstacles in your way every second. That's why you should trust yourself do make the right choice. I admit it, people are selfish. They WANT but they never give. If you can't get it freely, EARN IT. Do your best. Use your willpower. It does many miracles. Last time, a man had cancer, [Not sure what type] he spent his 'last day' with his family happily, and when he got back, hos tumor was gone. Live life fully, you'll never know when you'll die. A blink of an eye, and your 80. No reset button. No back button. What's done, is done. Choose the right choice, and do your best at everything.

...That was SOOO cliche.

Now, let me got and sleep. And wake up at 8:00 in the morning to get on EC. @.@ G'night

Deleted • 23 February 2012 at 10:59 PM

@phoenixfox ill give you a age range. i am between 15 and 18 years of age.
@saix .okay..........
@hayz that doesnt cheer me up.....

hayz • 23 February 2012 at 11:01 PM

@joker
I'll give you a hint.

Don't get too real with reality.

Deleted • 23 February 2012 at 11:02 PM

@hayz ..........i dont belive in 'reality'. i belive everyone has there own world, like mentally. people see, hear, smell. feel, and taste different, so it makes sense to me.

karamel • 24 February 2012 at 2:33 PM

@joker I have the same problem.

Let's suffer together. Just think... other people have this problem too, and you're not weird because of that. You are yourself, and that's good enough.