Confident :)

qwaszx • 2 March 2012 at 6:19 PM

Today I was feeling horrible. I hated myself and was beating myself up.
Then when I was doing my hair in the bathroom, I looked in the mirror. I saw then, that I was me. And me is beautiful. I shouldn't be trying so hard for a guy that is stupid enough to be mean to me.
I left to go to school and during math, I got handed back a test. I got a 99. I realized I wasn't stupid, I was one of the smartest in my class.
And later I was at lunch and I girl asked for my number and I realized I do have friends.😊

So what about you? If you're feeling down, look a little deeper at what's there 😉

dreamer • 2 March 2012 at 6:26 PM

Yesterday, I was completely convinced that one of my friends (who is a guy) lied to me about what my crush told him about me. I was upset, and told myself I would move on. For 24 hours, I had moved on. 24 hours where I felt free, happy, not a care in the world. But when you think about it; That's not how life is supposed to be, huh? Or else we'd be bored quickly.

I told that same friend that I knew it wasn't true. And I told him I was moving on. He was disappointed, he said I was so close, he looked at me with the straightest face and told me multiple times that what my crush said about me (and it was an amazing thing) was true.

At lunch today, my friends and I went to our normal table, but another group of girls was there, so we sat at a different table, right behind my crush with HIS friends.

I saw my crush point to me at once, and I saw him taking occasional glances at me, all of which made me feel very happy.

I was getting on the bus today with my friend, and a seventh grader asked my friend what my name was. Another boy said that I was too old for him (I'm actually a grade younger than the boy). 😋

Sometimes I look in the mirror and love it. I used to hate it, but... Now I love it. Why? Maybe my bright blue eyes. Maybe my recently-trimmed hair. Maybe the fact that I've matured so much for my age. Or, maybe because of my confidence slowly gaining up.

I'm worth something. I know it. Every little overlooked detail tells me that I mean a lot. 😊

gumi • 2 March 2012 at 6:31 PM

Ok... Maybe it had something to do with this account, or the Butterfly Kisses dream.. but... I don't feel like such a sensitive girl anymore, and I've... I dunno... really matured. Not with the same advice they keep giving me, but, myself. And, someday, I feel I can really be as outgoing and sweet as Gumi, who I RP as~