You ever feel like this?

dreamer • 5 April 2012 at 9:05 PM

I'm usually back-and-forth with my emotions, some of you may know. Buy I'm starting to stress out again, and it really is bad this time.

I just feel like my entire world is against me right now. Every little thing I do or think is either something I've screwed up, or dreams that will never come true. The minute I want something, it gets snatched out of my hands, and I get dragged into it... almost like a fish trying to grab the bait that it won't have for long.

I'm not very social (and to some said jerks who will come here to tell me to get social, please refrain from posting), and it's not easy to get more involved. I've been stressing too much lately, and I'm always miserable. I'm always exhausted, and all of my opinions are hated; even if the next guy thinks the same way I do, they get accepted, but not me.

What is so wrong with ME that makes me so bad and makes everyone else so good? I don't give a crap if people hate me, it's their problem. But if I start losing my friends, my family, anything I find joy in, then it gets serious.

I just... Can't win. Nothing ends well for me. Nothing. It's not even about bad luck anymore, I think the world just hates me to death. :/

Any help?

zafeyry • 5 April 2012 at 9:11 PM

@dreamer
Find other people in your situation 😊 All the time in school people tell me to shut up because they hate me and I'm worthless. I just shake it off, and remember that one day the nerds will be their boss xD

dreamer • 5 April 2012 at 9:15 PM

@Zafeyry Today one of my friends said to me, "We're better than them! Think about the future! We'll have lots of money and they'll be teen moms flipping burgers at McDonalds when we pull up in our limo."

Like, I get it. But I don't want to be recognized then, I want to be recognized now. D8 It's nice to know that I might have a chance... But now is the best time for socializing, if I'm excluded now then I'll just be even worse when I'm an adult. D8

Mehh. I dunno. It really is a nice thought though. XD

zafeyry • 5 April 2012 at 9:18 PM

@dreamer
I just ignore the girls who do that, guys don't really do that to me, and the girls are sk@nks anyway 😋 And I never even talk to them, so they can "flip" themselves if they think I care. But every time I see this one girl she says "Move Sean" and I got stuck on an after-school soccer team with her -_- I'll try not to punch her in the face 😋

dreamer • 5 April 2012 at 9:24 PM

@Zafeyry X3 A lot of girls in my grade do that too. Apparnetly I'm not a good person if I don't enjoy things that are overrated, if I don't sohw my bra straps, if I don't overdose with perfume, don't wear mascara, don't murder my hair with products, et catera. The whole idea really is stupid. In this case though it's not about popular people... It's about people who wish they were. I don't want to be a popular "Sk@nk", as you said. (not saying all populars are bad, the ones I know are). The wannabes are annoying. And more and more people long to be in the norm, that they're going to term into jerks. They make all girls seem obssessive and annoying, like the ones you see in movies about high schools and such. :/ We're not like that, though. IT'S THE WANNABES, I SWEAR. X'D

I'm annoyed by people who are just always rude. Sometimes I try to be nice, but I hate people that snap at everyone at every second. And over-achievers, they bother me a bit. The whole cliche of it, you know.

My only question is what makes them so good and what makes us seem like crap. D8 Im dying to know.

zafeyry • 5 April 2012 at 9:27 PM

@dreamer
And to be popular I'd have to scream out random Jersey shore quotes every second I'm awake and be a total d-bag xD

whispers • 5 April 2012 at 9:27 PM

@dreamer
I understand how you feel.
I'm not social.
And there are a lot of days where it feels like I've done something terribly wrong.
And now I am an ant and the world is staring down at me full of hatred and evil.

In my opinion, I think you so FREAKING COOLER THAN meh x)
You've been noticed on here as a SHMAUSUM user!
Nobody hates you, at least on here.
Anybody that hates you is jealous, or they are just jerks. They are.

And if you need someone to rant to, I'm always open. Just send a PM and we can work things out ^-^

dreamer • 5 April 2012 at 9:28 PM

@Zafeyry THAT IS THE TRUEST THING I'VE HEARD TODAY. X'D I can't stress how much I agree with you there. 😋

zafeyry • 5 April 2012 at 9:29 PM

@dreamer
I swear that girl cringes every time I walk by her without saying anything 😋

dreamer • 5 April 2012 at 9:35 PM

@Zafeyry Haha. xD The day I got glasses, everyone was staring at me funny in the hall. Some of my friends told me that I look good. Just shows you who people really are. 😸 If I don't have a Facebook, or if I don't watch Jershey Shore, or if I don't obssess over Taylor Swift and Justin Bieber (the biggest disgraces I've ever heard), then apparently I'm "not worthy." XP Seriosuly, at Gym all the girls sing in the locker room. And it's funny because the rest of us don't give a crap. XD

Meh. I'm done ranting for tonight. XP I have school tomorrow.

...Now if you'll excuse me, I need to go read before bed. I have about 30 pages left of Twilight, and then I need to finish New Moon by the 23rd (or else it'd be overdue at the library, and I hate going there)... I have a long month ahead of me. ;D

whispers • 5 April 2012 at 9:45 PM

Why do you care about being popular?

From what I've see, "populars" are the jerks that do the risky things.
The ones that will have babies during their teens.
The ones that will do drugs.
That ones that will go to jail.

At my school, the "populars" are reckless jerks that don't give a crap about what they do or say. They have french kisses in 6th grade.
They bring drugs to school (it actually happened o_o)

They are the stupid idiots that do the stupid risky stuff to get killed.
So why care about the whole school knowing who you are?
Why?

To me, the true definition of being truly popular is that you have many friends that truly care and will not leave you in any situation, no matter how serious it is.

snowrosehell • 6 April 2012 at 5:28 AM

@dreamer - I know how you feel 'coz in a way I am also like you. But the difference is that both my parents don't just know the terms 'socializing'. Getting involved in this site is one way of socializing in my opinion. 😊

Oh anyways, also felt like being against with the world. I even call it 'one vs the world' Lol. >.> In my opinion, they're just jealous of you. 😃 Don't think you're miserable because you are just as good as you are. You may not be the best but you are trying to be one (Just like meh xD). There are other people who are more miserable than you do (counting myself 😋).

But, I also get to the point where I felt like I'm starting to loose my friends and everyone! DD: I really hate those people esp. some of my friends who clings onto those so called 'popular' and would leave you hanging. I wonder at those incidents. They are soo .......

Anyways, I'm trying to read five books in one day so, later 😊

lunarstarz • 6 April 2012 at 5:41 AM

I'll be honest here
There are some people who are popular because they are well known and liked

And then theres the bunch that are popular because they do whatever it might take to get attention

Right now I'm only a young age (12) so I don't experience what you are experiencing
But I can tell it is a very difficult ordeal

Sometimes in order to have friends and be 'included' is to do whatever the 'group rules' say.

Eg. In your case, wearing an unhealthy amount of perfume/deodorant so it's enough to cause an asthma attack

The problem is when you just want to RELAX and be YOURSELF
Because that's when everyone thinks you don't abide the rules and they leave you
If the people doing these are your friends, they AREN'T your friends. Don't bother!

I advise probably telling an adult or a trusted person about this. Or if you could, to tell the people excluding you.
Because if you don't tell at least SOMEONE, it would keep going
Sometimes telling something about a problem is having courage
I consider you already brave to tell your situation here.

I wish you good luck.

Ps. In the meantime, have a happy Easter as well!

zafeyry • 6 April 2012 at 4:55 PM

@lunarstarz
Telling an adult really isn't a good option. They don't know what it's like to be in a middle school, unless they're a social worker or something. But what can the social worker do, make them be friends with you?

april__ • 7 April 2012 at 3:36 AM

@dreamer, I feel this way every day. And I'm 18.

I'm not sure what advice to give, but I just wanted to give you a big hug. ❤️ and to let you know you're not alone in how you feel. *hugs*

kp-giggles • 8 April 2012 at 8:59 PM

@dreamer I totally know how you feel. There have been lots of times for me when i feel like the whole world is against me. The only thing that has kept me hanging on is music and my friends. If i didn't have them i might now have been here to write this, it was that bad. But i got though it, and it got a bit better. No matter how bad it seem you just have to keep your head up and look forward. I promise it will get better, it might take a little while, but it will happen.
As for right now, just smile. Find something you love and hold on to it and don't let it go. And if you EVER need someone to talk to, I will be there for you.

stellalunagirl • 9 April 2012 at 5:43 AM

@dreamer

This probably happens to a lot of people, you're not that unique in the way of feeling stressed, rejected, disliked. There are times when this happens, there is at least one more person in the world that is experiencing the same thing as you. It may feel like the end of the world, but it's not.

When I start feeling down, "depressed", stressed out or unloved, I just remind myself that life is good, because at least half of the world's population have it worse than me. I'm not starving, I have a roof over my head, I have a decent education, and I have a computer. All these things stop me from being self-pitying.

Life isn't always about ME. If you don't find joy in the things you're doing, maybe you aren't supposed to be doing them. Focus your attention on OTHERS. Make them feel good, and soon you'll feel better as well.

olimpt • 9 April 2012 at 7:16 AM

@dreamer
Im in the same position as you. When I walk by people stare at my. I dont have that many friends and I HATE my bus because its a living hell. When I get home my brother begs me for everything I have thats eatable (Did I mention he is 330 pounds, age 16 (>.< ) He acts like a fricken 2 year old and mocks me. I don't want to go back to school tomorrow because of people going on an actual vacation. My friend went to Florida (>.< ) And guess what I did? Stay home on the computer all day ;.; And I havent been on vacation in over a year so its making me INSANE! Sadly I dont have any advise for you, but I recently got harassed on FB for sending someone farmville requests. She said that everyone who friended me was dared and she went on about how ugly I was (Maybe I should copy and past what happened, IDK) So uhh...Good luck to you, I will be checking this board every one in a while :I