Insecurities

suikadaisuki84 • 16 May 2012 at 11:16 AM

I don't know if I should share this with you guys but... The thing about me is that I think that I am no different in behaving when I'm online or when I'm face-to-face with people. one might think that it's okay but.. it's actually not okay, to me.

I have a difficulty in trying to react to situations. for example, someone praises me in a piece of work i've done. i feel like I should say thank you and smile, but i'm very awkward and i can't act naturally. *fake smile* that caused me to have a very small social circle and i feel very left out. this caused me to do things that most girls won't do = tomboyish attitude.

when i'm online, i don't know the right words to say. i'm scared of saying something because it might give someone the wrong impression of things -- rude, obnoxious when most of the time, i do feel sincere (most of the time...).

what should i do, guys? :/ i feel hopeless. it's my last year in mid-high school and i've got a major exam. i can't help but think about this because i do need friends. the bad side is that my classmates have formed their own groups/cliques so.. yeah. ☹️

snowrosehell • 16 May 2012 at 11:38 AM

@suikasaisuki84

Well, I am as the same as you, really. I always put in mind that NOT ALL people can take the things you're saying.

I know that being a meanie (it's rude in my dictionary, obnoxious and everything xD) is hard to part from your attitude but, try not to show it.

And yeah, I experience those stuff..... Even 'til now.. *sighs*

suikadaisuki84 • 16 May 2012 at 11:46 AM

@snowrosehell

I can't say that I'm glad that there's someone like me but I'm happy that there's someone that I can relate to which is you. 😊 Perhaps I didn't put in mind that not all ppl will accept what i say. i should try to think that way.

snowrosehell • 16 May 2012 at 12:02 PM

@suikadaisuki84 - Yeah, I think you should. The one thing you must do is 'Be sensitive to others' like, trying to read on how they feel or think if what would they feel if you said like this and that. You must remember that you can NOT undo every action you did and words that you say. Words can be as sharp as a knife or a sword when not used wisely. In every word you said by mistake can left you bleeding. 😉 😸

jayjay1 • 16 May 2012 at 12:17 PM

@suikadaisuki84
You know what you should just be true to your self and that's what matters I also think you should be more out going like me !!! maybe I could help a person or was that or was that annoy people either way I can help you everybody always thought I was shy and quite and a goody two shoes until they actually met me and learned I'm nothing on the shy side I'm a loud weird perverted person who says what she wants when she wants and yes I admitt I'm outgoing and weird in my own way but thats what people like about me they know they can have fun with this person, lol XD people really dont judge me so I could always teach you to be more out going while still being your self and you should also just go up to a bunch of random peps and be like yo I'm gonna sit here lol XD but what I do is I just go up to random people and socialize and then we're like the best of buds oh yeah incepreble (sp) but since basically everyones knows me they give in to my puppy dog eyes lol XD and as you can tell I'm very social I often get called a girly girl but i think I'm a tom girl since i can kick it with the guys any day seriously lol XD and i talk alot must warn you and hi my name tysh or ty but most call me ty lol XD

lola622f • 16 May 2012 at 9:58 PM

@suikadaisuki84

I am like this too, as I am diagnosed with a few personality disorders.

Force yourself to make friends and be confident. If one is confident, the others will think that you did nothing wrong, most of the time.

graceseggs • 16 May 2012 at 10:05 PM

@suikadaisuki84

I have the same problem in real life. Awkward situations are attracted to me. Mind if I piggy-back on your board?

As for the online thing, just say what you want to say. If you think that the person you are talking to took it the wrong way, correct or rephrase what you just said. If you don't want to do that, read through your response and rephrase it before you send it.

There may be a 90% chance of me being confusing, so feel free to disregard this post entirely. Have a nice day! 😃

Deleted • 17 May 2012 at 1:59 AM

@suikadaisuki84
I used to have this problem. I got over it by just excepting who I am 😊. It took a looong time, and therapy lol, but eventually I got there.

Try listing things that you like about yourself everyday ^^

suikadaisuki84 • 17 May 2012 at 5:56 AM

@snowrosehell

I keep reading what I type before I actually posts.. but somehow, someway or another, it just turns out wrong. I really hope I can actually say something and feel confident. I usually want to say something in some matter but I end up deleting that post.

@jayjay1

That's a looong post, hun. x) I can really see that you're extremely outgoing 😊 i really do want to be like you. i can say you're really brave to actually go up to a person and act like 'i'm going to do this' and socialize with people. that gotta take loads of courage...

@lola622f
*forces myself* i'll start off very chatty and open... but soon i'll be overshadowed and feel intimidated, if you know what I mean. my courage doesn't actually stay there. ☹️

@graceseggs
Yeah you can piggy back on my board x) you're not saying smth confusing, actually. i wish i can say what i want to say, but i'll end up deleting the post before i event click 'Post Reply' on any site. :X i always keep thinking, "people will think this is a stupid comment/post/contribution".

@lightnigember
Therapy? Was it very bad? :/ i'm glad you can accept yourself for who you are. 😊 i really do need to start doing it. I've always reminded myself of my mistakes. i guess i'm too harsh on myself...

I reaaaally need to have courage before i step into college life. Sometimes i really can't take it anymore ☹️ >>> neglects homework.

snowrosehell • 17 May 2012 at 7:31 AM

@suikidaisuki84 - Oh, I see. Same with me too.. xD But sometimes you have to trust yourself and your words. I think -that- is what you are lacking. I'm sure people on the web won't take things seriously. It's not a hurtful thing if you said something since we have way no idea of how people actually say what they're saying compared to reality. *sighs* >//<

Also, you shouldn't think of yourself being stupid or something. The world is not such a bad place you know? 😃 Try making yourself comfortable with others or trust them at least. (I know that no one can be trusted in reality especially in school ☹️)

You have to be strong. Remember that it's just another challenge and nothing will get lost if you take the risk. 😊

suikadaisuki84 • 17 May 2012 at 7:39 AM

@snowrosehell

thanks so much for the advice. i'm really reflecting a lot when i read what you said. i will learn to be strong. ^^ baby steps baby steps.. i guess time will tell if i do it right.

thank you, all of you! 😊

snowrosehell • 17 May 2012 at 7:49 AM

@suikadaisuki84 - Lol, no problem. 😊 I reflect most of the time.. xD And ends up regretting most ('coz like, I just thought of something better to say >//< ) I hate it when that happens! xD

*reads everything I said* O____O GOSH! I never expected I'll be saying something like that! 😱 *eyes wide in shock*