I am so insecure ;~;

whispers • 17 May 2012 at 5:02 PM

I feel so insecure with myself.
I don't feel happy with myself. I don't even like my own voice. I am also freaking shy.
I can't - no, I WON'T talk to any of my teachers, or raise my hand in class. I'm not confident at all. I always think I'm wrong. I never have any faith in myself.

I always feel I'm doing everything wrong. I feel embarrassed to do anything with anybody but 2 people. I hate it all the time when I'm forced to be in a group at school without my friends.

Sometimes, I'm so sick of my life and my low confidence, I just want to curl up in a ball and sit in a dark lonely corner.... ☹️

april__ • 17 May 2012 at 5:04 PM

@whispers

I know the feeling. It's rough.

I'm so insecure I have doubts that my dog even loves me.

Deleted • 17 May 2012 at 11:08 PM

@whispers
Oh honey!

I can't tell you how much I relate to you! When I was a teenager (I'm 25 now), I felt almost EXACTLT like you do now!

IT WILL GET BETTER!!! Please believe me when I say this! Soon you will learn to except WHO YOU ARE for WHO YOU ARE! You will learn that some people are just A' WHOLES and don't deserve your attention. PLEASE just love who you are at the moment and not for who you think you SHOULD be like I did.

Ember~*

pebblestar-nightclan • 17 May 2012 at 11:12 PM

@whispers
This is exactly me.
I've thought of killing myself before, even. I always lose the thought.

But I never do it.
Why?
Because I have a life that I can do something in.

It will get better for me, I know that much. People make fun of me because I'm a nerd and I know a lot; I'm very smart, people say.
But, let's just see where they are working in McDonald's, I'll be a well-trained veterinarian.

Whatever you feel like, never get to the point where you don't feel like living. That is the major point I have to get across.
Otherwise, I have full confidence in you to believe in yourself and start talking to people more often. 😊

I'll be here to talk to if you need me.

1992firebirdgirl • 17 May 2012 at 11:13 PM

@lightnigember good advice . i also am 26 and felt the same way when i was in high school and most of my life..i still feel that way from time to time. @whispers hang in there sweety

whispers • 18 May 2012 at 9:40 AM

@pebblestar-nightclan
@lightnigember
Thanks

stellalunagirl • 25 May 2012 at 4:07 AM

@whispers

A LOT of people are insecure, believe me you aren't the only one. Some people just more so than others.

Killing yourself isn't really any way of solving the problem. Sure, you won't feel insecure anymore, but you'd lose everything good about life.

And really if you feel like you hate life, think about all those who have it worse than you. People who have terminal illness, people in poverty, people experiencing natural disasters.

Honestly, there are PLENTY of people worse off than you and me.

Stop focussing on the bad things and be grateful for what you already have. It definitely changes your outlook on things.

snowrosehell • 25 May 2012 at 8:45 AM

@whispers - I know... >____<" ASDFGDSGH;DAFSGKI.
I never imagined that there are other person other than myself in the same page as me... TT_TT

@stellalunagirl is right. To be honest, the most CRAZIEST idea that ever popped in my head is the sharp edge object. (I'm sure you know what it means... e_e)

Guess what? I never did!
I always think about everything first. Now, I've realized a lot in life..
1) I am still young and I can still change everything that goes on with my life.
2) I m the one that carves my future and NO ONE else. 😃
3) Life is way to beautiful to abandon it. I may not be able to enjoy the future the new inventions and discoveries! xD
and last but not the least, you can't enjoy all the stuff you love! *-* Mwahahaha! xD


But here's a revision on some parts of what she said.. If you feel like life was unfair and you hated it... think of those people who love you.. What will happen if you're gone? Do you ever think that they will also be lonely if you are sad and hurt?
Some might not be obvious but they love you. Try to be strong and live life to fullest! xD

@pebblenight-starclan *pokes* xD I noticed you're post and is exactly mehh..