So... Yeah. If you care about feelings... Maybe come here or so.

Deleted • 2 September 2012 at 3:51 PM

I miss my mother. SO much. And I just HAVE to share it with someone.

A few year ago my mother also lived with us, till she decided it was enough. She moved to a special "house", taking us with her.
Sadly, something happened. When we were at school, some people came in my class, asking for me to come with them.
What seemed:

They told me that my mother couldnt take care of me and my sisters, and that at this moment some other people told this to my sisters. They said I would go to another house, for a while. Yes, a foster family.

So, they took me with them. I wasnt allowed to go to my sisters to say goodbye, no. They took me to a foster family, alone. I wasnt allowed to know where I was going, till the moment of being there. It was horrible. They seemed nice, but they werent.

I stayed there for a while, moving from family to family. Finally, I ended up moving to my boyfriend. We broke up, but still lived in the same house. Till one day. I got called. My foster dad asked me who called. After telling that, he got angry.

After a BIG mess up, I got kicked out of the house.
And now I live with my dad and two sisters, not allowed to live with my mom. Im daily wondering if they shall come again, because the move to my dad never happened officially.

Also, some of you dont know it, but this started two years ago, like I said. I was 12, almost 15 now.

cat • 2 September 2012 at 3:53 PM

@essieh Wow... That seems terrible :'O

I'm really sorry for you. If you need to chat, feel free to PM me.

Deleted • 2 September 2012 at 3:55 PM

@cat You're right, it was. Im glad someone cares about it.

It was terrible, but Im happy Im over the moment of experiencing it again and again...

hay7199 • 2 September 2012 at 3:56 PM

Oh my gosh... I am literally crying right now... I cant belive that you got sent to foster homes... That happened to me once. But I ran away, then my parents got back together and I got to come back home... It was really tramatizing... :"""*(

cat • 2 September 2012 at 3:56 PM

@essieh

Of course I care! Why wouldn't I?

It really does seem terrible... I'm really sorry for you ;-;

newlife • 2 September 2012 at 3:57 PM

@essieh
That's... really sad.
I feel very bad for your Essie. </3

But you will always have friends here, so don't worry.

Deleted • 2 September 2012 at 3:57 PM

@essieh i feel so sorry for you that must've been hard and terrible to go through

seaangel • 2 September 2012 at 3:58 PM

@essieh

Oh my. I know cat already said this, but you can PM at anytime. I know a couple people in foster families and that were in the same situation as you. I'm here for you.

Deleted • 2 September 2012 at 3:59 PM

@cat I know you care ❤️ But still, Im glad to know for sure someone does .-. Also, one good point about it, if you could call it good, is that I became stronger. I can handle way more now.

@newlife Ofcourse ❤️ I know. I have ups and downs weekly about it, and today is just a day I cant take anymore and have to let it out.

@izzfred Thank you

dv55555 • 2 September 2012 at 3:59 PM

@essieh
Woah, thats sad..

newlife • 2 September 2012 at 4:00 PM

@essieh
o: Aww❤️
You know that people care here, and no one will judge you about this. It's not like you had a choice.
At least you didn't fight about it, like, kicking and shoving.
Good Essie. 😸

Deleted • 2 September 2012 at 4:01 PM

@essieh it must've been hard not geting to say goodbye to your sisters or mom.You have my full support and i i agree with you that going through this has made you stronger therefore your life is easier also feel free to PM me

Deleted • 2 September 2012 at 4:04 PM

@essieh
That truly, truly, stinks....I probably couldn't handle it if I was in your position.

Deleted • 2 September 2012 at 4:09 PM

@seaangel
@newlife
@izzfred

Thank you so much, it means a lot ;-;

@colette There are days I thought I couldnt take it anymore. Those were days I did nothing else than crying, crying and crying... I also couldnt reach my mom, my forst parents were watching me daily and took my mobile each night.

whispers • 2 September 2012 at 4:14 PM

@essieh
*hugs* That's terrible. I know you must miss your mom like crap. And I bet it's been hard moving from family to family. And as others said, PM me anytime. I will talk and help as much as I can ❤️

Deleted • 2 September 2012 at 4:16 PM

@whispers I know, that was the worst part. In some of the families there were nice persons, but I told myself not to get attached to them, because I had to move again... Plus I never knew the next family would be kind or not. My second-last family was the most kind, still have contact with them ❤️

spirithawk • 3 September 2012 at 7:38 PM

@essieh Oh my gosh, I never knew that happened to you. I feel so bad, I just... ;-; I hope you feel better, and if you ever need anybody to talk to, I'm always listening. 😊

calicogoldfish • 4 September 2012 at 12:45 AM

@essieh

That's heartbreaking, I'm so sorry ☹️ I've had a rough time with my own family and abuse. I guess you can really never know why a person's sad until you ask. *hugs* Everything will get better, because if you keep looking down you won't know where you are going and looking up is so much brighter.
If you ever need someone to talk to or listen to you I'm always her c:

chowchow2012 • 4 September 2012 at 2:35 AM

@essieh
aww... so sad :'( lol I can;t tell a lie i don't like lies.

I can't guarantee things will get better, but time heals all wounds 😊 As much as I wish things could happen in a flash they don't. I'm exactly a comforting type of person ._. but chowie's wise words

Life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what you're going to get.

you can't blame yourself. 😊 but you can';t blame other people. IDK if this makes you feel better but if you see my life you'll be grateful for yours. no jokes my life is screwed

PM me anytime.

2-dgorillaz • 4 September 2012 at 3:41 AM

@essied

dude....thats harsh...i..f-feel so sorry for you
i hope your ok😊

i would not know what to do if i was you

i'll try to make u feel better if you want just write on my wall or PM me

darksnow23 • 4 September 2012 at 5:27 AM

@essieh
You're so strong... I'll always be here to listen 😊

hedwig68 • 4 September 2012 at 6:15 AM

@essieh

Wow, that must have been so hard for you. I am sorry to hear that you had to go through all of that. This has been said several times but if you ever want to talk just shoot me a PM. 😊

Deleted • 4 September 2012 at 6:24 AM

@essieh You might have been going through several hardships, I feel soo sorry for you ☹️ If you ever want to talk, you can send in a PM ^^

eggs • 4 September 2012 at 6:38 AM

@essieh
You're really brave, going through so many hard times ☹️ I really feel sorry for you, and what you've been through ;-; If it was me, i'd completely lose my way, but you stood on the strong side, and you should be proud of yourself 😊 The stuff that happened to you is tragedy, but don't worry, since you still have people who love you (i'm certain your Mom would miss you too), and as the saying goes, 'In every cloud there is a silver lining' 😸

Forget about the pain and hardship of the past, move on to your future, be optimistic, plus I wish you good luck! 😸

Feel free to PM me if you want too 😊

bunnynw • 4 September 2012 at 7:06 AM

@Essieh

*stunned* How... awful.....

and I never knew... Oh i am so sorry about all this essie. So so so sorry to hear about all the hardships and problems you have been going through. All your depressed statuses were killing me. I wanted you to be happy, because wow. you are a lot of a different person when you are happy.

I got so confused just reading it. Imagine how it would feel if i was actually going through it. I am so sorry once again. I hope that things would get better for you *hugs* because u deserve wayyy better. I wish you the greatest of luck in the future. I know you will stay strong and fight till the end. I believe in you Essie. AND i know you can make the best out of bad times. Because you are unique Essie, and stronger than anyone i know. ❤️333 *hugs and pats back*

sanibel_18 • 4 September 2012 at 10:29 AM

@essieh

*is crying a little bit*
oh god... i feel so sorry for you!;-;
i hate to see people sad,especially if they are my friends.
wait, they took away your phone so you couldn't contact your sisters? and they weren't even nice?
but that's torture!D8
again, i am really sorry for you... ☹️
you are the strongest.i could never live like that. if that happened to me then i would have just told my foster family to let me go or i would kill myself... -_-
i really mean it, i could kill myself if i wanted.xD
your life has been really sad, but one day, you will be the happiest girl in the whole world!c:

and If you ever need someone to talk to or listen to you I'm always her.😊

alchemyfox • 4 September 2012 at 1:35 PM

@essieh Im really sorry to hear that. ☹️

Deleted • 4 September 2012 at 1:37 PM

@alchemyfox Thank you. 😊

To everyone else, please remember that Im not asking for people think I am seeking attention, I just had to let it out. So sorry if this topic irritated you, as I never meant to attract attention with a sad story.

Because I DONT want people to find me like that. YES, this has happened, but Im not looking for attention, only for understandings 😊

ems • 4 September 2012 at 1:42 PM

@essiah
T^T That is so sad! I don't know what I'd do! ☹️
If you need to talk PM me. 😊