I don't feel confident with myself more than half the time.

whispers • 8 September 2012 at 7:55 PM

I've never been confident with myself. Well, I used to be. But after hearing what other people thought of me, all I think about is what others think of me. Even on here.

It's hard to even walk up infront of my class, and it's worse to do a presentation. Cause I get worried sick the night before, my face gets red. I stammer, slur my words, and I forget what the heck I was supposed to say. It sucks. But it's a hard habit to break. I don't even raise my hand to ask questions, or answer them. If I am randomly called on to answer my questions, as said earlier, I stammer and slur my words. If I have questions I ask my friend who understands it.

I feel as if somebody it stalking me, ready to pounce me at insults. I feel as if he was staring at me for a bad reason, although it could've been good. I don't feel confident with myself about the way I look, act, write, everything.

I'll lay in bed at night for hours, crying. Cause I know somebody is out there talking about what I did wrong. What I said wrong. About me. I am worried sick. I want to change. But I don't know how... Help? ☹️

Deleted • 8 September 2012 at 7:58 PM

@whispers you need to think about what you're good at. It doesn't matter who you are on the outside. It matters who you are on the inside. Looks don't matter as much as kindness. If you don't believe in yourself you won't be successful at life. Try to do something new and believe in yourself that you can do it. If you believe in yourself you can acomplish great things in life.

whispers • 8 September 2012 at 8:06 PM

@izzfred
I'm good at drawing, playing the Viola, and riding horses. I guess.
But I'm successful already, cause I'm smart. I'm taking Geometry in middle school.


What should I try new? ;A;

zoom150 • 8 September 2012 at 8:10 PM

@whispers trust me i almost the same way im just shy.... or at least used top be now ive gottne better about it

Deleted • 8 September 2012 at 8:13 PM

@whispers have you ever gone zip lining or sky diving?

jillianjil • 8 September 2012 at 8:13 PM

@Whispers
I feel that feeling sometimes. ☹️
It's like:
I feel hopeless and small
I feel like someone is always watching me
I'm afraid to say something funny and all popularish
I find it a harder to find the courage to strike a conversation
I JUST WANT TO DISAPPEAR!
My teachers all like me because of my creativity and how smart I am. I swear I'm no nerd or anything (lol) but I consider myself.. the quiet type.
But it started getting much easier when I graduated elementary school and went off to middle school/junior high. I guess it was kinda a new start for me. ^^ Don't get me wrong though, I'm still not big on being brave... 😋

whispers • 8 September 2012 at 8:14 PM

@zoom150
I know other people have been shy. But mine has gone too far. It's making my life a crazy train of chaos.

@izzfred
Ziplines, yes. Skydiving - never. I have a phobia of airplanes.

Deleted • 8 September 2012 at 8:15 PM

@whispers go sky diving off of a cliff it's unique. Hangliding is also very fun.

whispers • 8 September 2012 at 8:20 PM

@izzfred
My. Mom. Would. Flip. o.o And where I live I don't know anywhere to do that anyways.

@jillianjil
I am like you. Smart and creative. Quiet. But I am a nerd (as some meaners say). And I'm in 8th grade now, and I have barely said a word this year and it's been two weeks now. I want to talk to my crush. But I don't have the guts too V.V

Deleted • 8 September 2012 at 8:23 PM

@whispers go to Whitefish,Montanna and go to the base lodge. Then go get tickets to go on Arial Adventure Park.

please tell me if i spelt Arial wrong

darcy_vasquez • 8 September 2012 at 8:24 PM

@whispers

Same happens to me. Some boys bother me telling me that I'm ugly. I'm succesfull and don't pay attention to them. It's hard sometimes, but it works. I'm getting more and more confident and don't matter that they say anything to me. Just try to do that. It's all worth it 😃

jillianjil • 8 September 2012 at 8:26 PM

@Whispers
I'm slightly younger than you. 😱
I don't have a crush, and never have in my life (absolute truth) Sure there are cute guys out there *Regrets saying since Zoom150 is a boy xD* but I don't fall for them since 3/4 and a half of them aren't worth it lol plus none of them are interested in me.. ☹️ Except this one guy... he won't leave me alone... ❤️
( GIRL TALK ALL BOYS LEAVE PLEASE (JK) )

😸:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3:3

whispers • 8 September 2012 at 8:27 PM

@izzfred
That's all the way across the country from me. I can't do that.

@darcy_vasquez
They don't say things to me. It's just how I've grown up to become. I've been acting like this since kindergarden when everybody thought I was a dork for something I couldn't control. After that I started being worried sick of what they've thought of me. To my body now, it's normal. D;

Deleted • 8 September 2012 at 8:31 PM

@whispers i'm in grade four and have a crush and i've moved away from him and mostly whenever my friends ask it makes me think about him. I honestly really like him but now i can't go to high school with him. Try taking a hitatus from eggcave. That might help.

whispers • 8 September 2012 at 8:34 PM

@izzfred
I'll try one day. But right now, it's somewhere that I have friends who might have gone what I am going through and will understand

Deleted • 8 September 2012 at 8:35 PM

@whispers i'm glad i could if i did at all.... i don't understand exactly what you're going through and can't help much and i'd be surprised if i did.

whispers • 8 September 2012 at 8:36 PM

@izzfred
You did help.
Not everybody understands, some do. But most people here can help. That's why I've stayed here ❤️

Deleted • 8 September 2012 at 8:38 PM

@whispers well then i'm glad i could help

whispers • 8 September 2012 at 10:41 PM

@izzfred
Welcome ;D

seaangel • 8 September 2012 at 10:48 PM

@whispers

Girl, your amazing and everyone knows it. None, of those things are true, because people worry if OTHER people are judging THEM. I used to have the same problem, but not any more. For me, MMA (mixed martial arts) made me a bit braver, and I'm not like that any more.

YOU, however, do not need to worry because they judge you, because they're JEALOUS OF YOU.

whispers • 8 September 2012 at 11:38 PM

@seaangel
Thank you for the nice words. But I know the bullies are jealous. But it's been 2 years since I was last bullied. But I've been like this since kindergarden, so it's like my brain is wired this way. >.< I'm trying to find ways to change (like talk to my crush) but it's hard to change. It'll take time to break this "habit"

seaangel • 8 September 2012 at 11:40 PM

@whispers

You don't need to change. Your fine the way you are, and I can't believe anyone not liking you.

whispers • 8 September 2012 at 11:42 PM

@seaangel
Well, I know several *glares at several girls in RL who hate me* I don't care about them.

And the way I act on EC and in RL are completely different

seaangel • 8 September 2012 at 11:46 PM

@whispers

Believe I understand, if this was real life I would be tucked away in the corner writing a story about magic, or poetry, or what I'm going through. I'm not shy, I just hate being with somebody else.

newlife • 8 September 2012 at 11:53 PM

@Whispers
Who cares if you're not confident? Don't listen to what other people tell you, people are cold hearted inside -points to me- You're an awesome, kind person that everyone loves and knows. (:
You just have to think about something else for a second, and what good things will happen after whatever you're doing, and take a few deep breaths.

yogurt • 9 September 2012 at 12:09 AM

@Whispers
I do it sometimes but the way I think is kind of different. I know that if I go up there and be all jittery and nervous people will notice you and you'll be making your self look worse than they already see you so,since I'm always thinking about how people look at me I pretend like I don't care or that I'm smart and mature so I can avoid being the girl in the from of class who messes up at everything and makes a fool out of herself.

Maybe I think too much?
Usually when people are nervous they mess up but when I'm nervous I act like I have everything going better than how I would do when I'm comfortable. It's probably because I understand that if I'm going to do something wrong it's because I'm too nervous.

I think I'm lucky to think this way and you should probably start trying to change your mindset of the situation.

It helps a lot. (: or at least it's easier than doing the "stop caring about what other people think" thing. I've tried to think that way but it's pretty much impossible for me because life is based on relationships and how others view you as a person and whether they decide they want to be your friend or not. :c It's not a good thing but it's going to be very hard to change how many people live their lives judging others.

Good luck. ^^