I am scared, oh so scared...

metaphor • 10 September 2012 at 3:38 PM

Follow up to "I hate writing rubrics" thread.
Gee, I should start a blog on writing woes. Would save you all a whole lot of baaaaawwwwwwwing from me.

Anyway, tomorrow I am scheduled to meet with the professor to discuss the essay that spawned all my anxiety to begin with. Everyone has one, it's just an easy way to help people improve and whatnot, but I AM SO FREAKING SCARED.

Just, the thought of being in a room discussing my work alone with a professor makes me very uncomfortable. I'm afraid what I wrote doesn't make sense and is pretentious. I'm so scared I don't think I'll be able to eat dinner. And I've been doing so well. Have lost about 5 lbs already since starting college.

deku • 10 September 2012 at 3:44 PM

@metaphor

Don't worry about it. This is my second year in college, and I went through an English class where I had to discuss my essay with my professor twice.

She was really nice about it and I was nervous for no reason. Of course she pointed out some flaws like, "In this essay you sounded like a good little Catholic girl. I want to see more of your opinion on religion on this."

Now, I'm not saying your professor will exactly like that, but it won't be as bad as you think it will be. Just take a breath, calm it the good-stuff down. He'll tell you what you did wrong, but in the nicest way possible.

He won't call you an idiot or say you sound arrogant.

metaphor • 10 September 2012 at 3:50 PM

@ixy1209

Thank you very much that's just what I needed to hear. Realistically, I am sure that professors are willing to be kind and helpful to those who do put thought, effort, and the best of their skills into their work. I am just a perfectionist x1000 and there is just this nagging thought at the back of my head that I didn't know what the heck I was doing and that it makes no sense.

But really, thank you. Now I can eat my delicious salad without fearing a stomachache!

deku • 10 September 2012 at 3:53 PM

@metaphor

Good~ I'm glad to hear I helped at least a little. :'D

You'll do fine since you put so much into what you do. 😸

metaphor • 10 September 2012 at 4:33 PM

@ixy1209

It's just not me to just not care about the way I present myself through written communication. I'd be crazy enough to say that it means more to me than doing my hair every morning and making sure I eat right and exercise.


I sound like such a nut. I apologize, haha.

deku • 10 September 2012 at 4:44 PM

@metaphor

Naw man, it's good. I'm a big grammar and spelling freak. And I like to *think* I'm big on how I write essays, but I just don't care in the long run. So I don't really know what you're going through.

But this is just how you deal. Nothing wrong with it. Just know that things won't be as harsh. *Nod*

solaris • 10 September 2012 at 4:55 PM

@metaphor

Oh man! I can totally sympathise.

Is this your first year of university?

metaphor • 10 September 2012 at 9:11 PM

@solaris

At a four-year University, yes. I attended classes at a community college during high school, and while I had one teacher who really wanted to see her student improve and so was a little harder with grading, most just gave you a good grade for doing it.

sprite • 10 September 2012 at 9:17 PM

@metaphor

You will do great . Don't worry!

I would write more need to head to bed.

Listen and learn but stay true to your style 😊

metaphor • 10 September 2012 at 10:33 PM

@luvmykids244

Thanks! I'm kind of flowery. Like, I know the difference between purple prose and descriptive language and when I see myself straying toward the former I make myself just stop writing for a while and take a break.

I'm just afraid my thesis isn't clear.
What exactly is a clear thesis in a personal essay? (a rhetorical question, really)