It seems that...

newlife • 1 October 2012 at 11:51 PM

It seems that I have major depression. I have severe to extreme anxiety, and I am very close to hurting myself. I have also been a lot more violent.. And with mood swings, extreme.
The only thing that can save me at this point is singing, but since I'm really shy about it, it's hard for me to express my feelings.
Note: I have NOT told my parents about this.

unknownangels • 1 October 2012 at 11:55 PM

@newlife

=/ did you try talking to someone about this? i really think you should . Hurting yourself wont really make anything better, just try and think positive =]

** just saw your note >_< try talking to them. parents understand a lot more than you think

newlife • 1 October 2012 at 11:55 PM

@unknownangels
I have told multiple friends about this. We're not exactly sure about what to do. I don't want to go through counseling..

unknownangels • 1 October 2012 at 11:57 PM

@newlife

why not? lots of people do it . one of my best friends did it and he was a lot happier. just think of it as a way to vent without being judged.

alchemyfox • 1 October 2012 at 11:57 PM

You should tell at least one close family member. I tell my mom a lot more about my problems then the people I live with. When I hit depression for a while my mom took me to see a psychiatrist. I think that helped a lot. Im a lot happier than I used to be.

@unknownangels My thoughts exactly.

newlife • 2 October 2012 at 12:00 AM

@unknownangels
It's hard for me because I always seem happy.. All the counselors know me because I'm so carefree.
@alchemyfox
I might talk to my mother.. But she might seem shocked and tell my dad.. I don't want to tell my dad about this.

alchemyfox • 2 October 2012 at 12:03 AM

@newlife Ah, I see. Yeah, I didnt want anyone else to really know either but I think seeing a psychiatrist is not only helpful but I had fun! Mine let me draw, do oragami, play in a sandbox and other fun things while we discussed issues. Even when I didnt need to see them anymore, I wanted to go back because i had fun. 😋

newlife • 2 October 2012 at 12:04 AM

@alchemyfox
Ah.. but our family isn't that rich D; Don't those cost a lot of money?

alchemyfox • 2 October 2012 at 12:05 AM

@newlife Were not very wealthy either. I dont think it costs all that much.

clayosaurusrex • 2 October 2012 at 12:07 AM

@NEWLIFE




OMG! GIVE YOURSELF A HUG RIGHT NOW!

unknownangels • 2 October 2012 at 12:07 AM

@newlife

i agree with @alchemyfox . I wish got had help like that . I spoke to my mom about almost everything too. Shes a parent but more than that to me . Maybe ask your mom ,nicely, to respect your feelings and not tell your dad. Maybe say its something that you are trying to deal with and you just want to be responsible and get help.

** im sure your parents/mom can look into finding someone affordable . If not then even try finding a book somewhere about what your feeling. Like the self help books and such

newlife • 2 October 2012 at 12:10 AM

@alchemyfox @unknownangels
Okay. I will talk to my mom about this when I get offline.
@clayosaurusrex
Now, to do that.. -tries to hug myself- xD

unknownangels • 2 October 2012 at 12:13 AM

@newlife

we'll give you hugs ! -huuuuug! and a piece of cake - if youre allergic to cake im going to feel terrible lol

alchemyfox • 2 October 2012 at 12:15 AM

@newlife Thank you. Im hoping the best for you. 😊

@unknownangels So counceling doesnt usually cost a lot? I dont think it did for me. It was back in middle school when I went so i dont remember now. I'm a graduate now.

unknownangels • 2 October 2012 at 12:23 AM

@alchemyfox
my friend who went said that he didnt pay too much...now "too much " can vary for people lol I think it was still a little pricey but something he at least could afford. It was a few years ago so i cant remember too well =/
they have to have some kind of state thing that will help pay though.....dont they >.>
** sorry ...just thinking of the u.s >_< i wouldnt know what its like in other countries =[

alchemyfox • 2 October 2012 at 12:28 AM

@unknownangels No idea. They should. >_> Geez, I used to be a little violent.. Fighting with my sister all the time, Fallencrystaldevil. Now SHE is depressing. Were like night and day. I like country, she likes heavy metal.

pendulum • 2 October 2012 at 12:29 AM

@newlife

Hi there. Eri here. Or Lumi, whichever. c:
@unknownangels and @alchemyfox are right. It's best to talk to someone about how you are feeling. It would be good to talk to your mother about what is going on, and ask her not to tell your father about it if you don't feel comfortable. Depression is a serious thing, and people shouldn't take it lightly. However, if talking to your mother doesn't seem right or comfortable as it should, I suggest maybe going to a counselor.

A counselor may be able to help you with your depression.

I've been diagnosed as clinically depressed when I had problems the past few years, but got through them myself. I've also been clinically diagnosed with a social anxiety disorder that became better because of exercises the counselor told me to go through.

Also, keep an open mind. My friend became really depressed out of the blue and pushed everyone away and did some really weird things, but it happened to be a chemical imbalance with her body. I am in no way saying that's what is going on with you, but yeah. xD

I know the idea may seem unappealing, but depression can be overpowering & overwhelming; it can get as bad as not going to school, work, cutting off all friends and family, and venting as hurting yourself, etc.

FIRSTLY, talk to le mother and go from there. c:

alchemyfox • 2 October 2012 at 12:33 AM

@pendulum and @newlife Another thing that could help you is to take pills for depression. Im curresntly taking those. Although Im not badly depressed anymore..

pendulum • 2 October 2012 at 12:36 AM

@alchemyfox

Yes, that too but the thing is the way to go about that usually is going to see a psychiatrist to make sure that's what is going on and it's not that unusual chemical imbalance that makes things wonky with your body and emotions and mind. c:

As far as prices go, (I live in the US) I am not sure. I believe they vary. It ranges from free (school counselor) to obviously not free. (private practice for a psychiatrist) xD

@newlife

It all depends what you want to do, and I wish the best for you. If you need to talk, we're all here. c:

alchemyfox • 2 October 2012 at 12:41 AM

@pendulum I don't need to see one anymore since most of my depression is gone. I am also a very sensitive person. It doesnt take much to make me tear up. One of the things I've always disliked about myself. But the pills helped me there.

And I live in the US, too. I used to see a school counciler every day after P.E. when I was younger. I dont think I was very truthful with her. :/

pendulum • 2 October 2012 at 12:43 AM

@alchemyfox

I am so sensitive too, I can't even.
PERKS OF BEING AN EMOTIONAL 19 YEAR OLD, CHECK. ;-;

I know what you mean. Some counselors aren't really welcoming or even open which causes people not to be honest with them.

Granted, I've been to a few school counselors and one was not approachable at all, while the other was very lovely. It's weird.

alchemyfox • 2 October 2012 at 12:47 AM

@pendulum I'm like a half a year younger than you. Yes, I get yelled at a lot by my mom. "Why are you tearing up!? You are SO dang sensitive!!"

I can't help it.. ☹️ She should know how I feel, she used to be the same way.. She also took pills for it.

And the school counciler I had I didnt like very much. She was real strict on people. She used to always yell at me simply for sitting sideways in my desk.

pendulum • 2 October 2012 at 12:52 AM

@alchemyfox

Eeee, I would be like lololol, mom. I am allowed to be emotional. xD

I don't get it. You should be allowed to be emotional. :c It's a human function up to the day you pass.

That school counselor shouldn't be a counselor then. xD
A lot of my teachers were a bit strict. Can't sit a certain way, etc. I know what you mean. D:

alchemyfox • 2 October 2012 at 12:55 AM

@pendulum XD Yeah, I know.. D: *sigh* She blames my age.. That Im way too old to cry this much. I mean.. I dont really cry very much, just easily.

XD I know. She was kinda mean to the little kids too.

Not to go off subject but will you trade something for one of my for trade creatures?

pendulum • 2 October 2012 at 12:59 AM

@alchemyfox

Well, I think any age you are allowed to cry. CRY AWAY MY GOOD LADY. *huggles*

It's okay to cry easily. Heck, I do all the time and I know I won't be able to change that. xD

HOW. CAN. PEOPLE. BE. MEAN. TO. LITTLE. KIDS.

I don't understand. xD Little kids don't have a great concept of understanding as much as adults do, but still. Omg, this counselor needs an adjustment or some compassion.

HEY NOW. At least she isn't as bad as Professor Dolores Umbridge. (Harry Potter reference)

No thanks. I am not trading any of my creatures right now. D:

alchemyfox • 2 October 2012 at 1:02 AM

@pendulum Awwwe, thank you! XD *huggles back*

I know, right!? D: Shes been a teacher there ever since I was in elementry.

XD Good point.

And okay. Im playing Wizards 101 right now. Xp *nerd*

Oh! Do you like roleplaying?

pendulum • 2 October 2012 at 1:08 AM

@alchemyfox

Anytime. c:

Oh my. TIME TO RETIRE I THINK~ /cough/

Eeeee, I am playing Aion as we speak. So good~

Yes, I do like roleplaying. c:

alchemyfox • 2 October 2012 at 1:11 AM

@pendulum Yes, it IS late. 😋

What is Aion?

And cool! Would you like o sometime? 😊

pendulum • 2 October 2012 at 1:15 AM

@alchemyfox

Aion is a fun fun fun game. Online game.

Sure sure. Not tonight though.

I must go to bed soon~
c:

Ttyl everyoneee.

alchemyfox • 2 October 2012 at 1:21 AM

@pendulum

MMORPG game? 😸

Of course not, I have to go to sleep too. 😋