Why is this so hard? =/

metaphor • 24 April 2014 at 11:12 PM

So I know everyone in my life is probably sick of hearing this by now, but it's still hard for me even though I am slowly getting over it and not crying my eyes out anymore. I think I've learned from this, and feel as though I will probably learn more from it as long as I let myself. But anyway, here it goes. Warning: this will sound stupid.

Usually I'm not fixated on grades. I don't have anywhere near a perfect GPA, and I'm okay with that. However, I am very hard on myself when it comes to papers, as you may know. Just on Wednesday, I got my latest back in Shakespeare; I got a B+.

Oh my god, did it sting. It came from a professor who always talks me up, and I feel as though I've let him down by being less than perfect.

Well, I talked it over with my counselor, and while I have somewhat come to terms with it and the idea that it's just a B+, that life goes on and this grade is no reflection of my character or self-worth, I still have trouble believing it.

I feel like a letdown. I feel burnt out.

I guess you can say I'm already a bit depressed as it is. I've gone for whole days without eating this week simply because I don't have the appetite. There's a huge pit in my stomach. I have so much work to do, and I know everyone does at this point of the year/semester, but it just feels like such a drag, like there's no point if it can't be perfect.

So yeah, sorry.
Just needed to vent.

awkolicious • 9 May 2014 at 7:08 PM

@metaphor I'm not sick of hearing this, I'll listen. You aren't crying, which is good. I hope you have learned from this. It does not sound stupid.

Grades don't measure your intelligence, in my eyes, so don't be hard on yourself. I would feel extremely happy with a B+! Great job!

It shouldn't sting, you should be PROUD. You aren't any less than perfect, because nobody's perfect.

The counselor was being slightly rude, he should have congratulated you. I understand you have a hard time believing this, but nobody's perfect.

Don't feel let down because you didn't get an A.

Please don't be depressed, don't stress, and you may feel a little more relaxed!

Don't feel sorry.

Anyways, I just tried to comfort a complete stranger who I don't know anything about. You might be over this by now, but you're a great person! 😃

whitefall • 22 May 2014 at 2:26 AM

@metaphor

Well, I would feel disappointed with a B+ too.
I'm sure you put a lot of hard work into that paper.

But I guess you could learn from your mistakes and try harder for the next one. ^^

I usually find myself trying much harder when I have failed once

Don't be too sad! 😸
You're a special snowflake and I hope you finish your semester satisfied!

Deleted • 22 May 2014 at 6:47 AM

@metaphor
Hi 😃
Don't stress ! It's a very natural thing to feel disappointed with yourself - but it's not healthy. I know pretty much everyone would disagree with this, but don't worry or pressure yourself over grades. What happens, happens. It doesn't make you a failure if you academical achievements aren't top-notch. Honestly, try different methods to try and overcome depression - I know meditation sounds funny, but it's worth giving it a go.
Smile c:

werewolf • 22 May 2014 at 7:26 AM

@metaphor
Don't worry everyone will sometimes get a grade there not happy with,but you should be proud and grateful with a B+!!! Not everyone can achieve such a grade! Be happy from what you have achieved not from what you haven't cause life's not about counting all the mistakes you made it's about learning from them to achieve better in the future and make all the good things seem great.

So DON"T worry about getting under the grade you wanted laugh at it and used the knowledge from it to achieve even better in your next exam/paper.

And use it to get your next A++

invisiblefly • 22 May 2014 at 2:07 PM

In my school, many people pretty much fail their science and english class. I heard that one had a D-. But here's the thing- at least you have a better grade than them. Also, if you here that someone has a perfect GPA, just remember that there is always someone better than you. 😊

metaphor • 22 May 2014 at 2:38 PM

@muzb

Haha, that's not an easy thing for me to accept, but I am coming to terms with the fact.

UPDATE: I got an A on my final paper for the class in question. I finished the class with an A- overall. I learned a lot from this experience, as hard as it was at first, and this final A feels truly deserved because of the work I put into evaluating myself and how I can take my work to the next level. 😊

cclynn2855 • 22 May 2014 at 4:14 PM

@metaphor I'm so happy that you got an A bit (^.^)(^.^)(^.^)('u')

mejary • 6 June 2014 at 12:14 AM

@metaphor it's ok that you feel bad about it, it shows that you care about your grades, but to me a B+ is excellent grades, all my grades are D and C lol