I can't sleep. :/

metaphor • 24 August 2011 at 1:18 AM

So yeah...school in a few hours, and I can't even think about sleep. I keep alternating between coming on my computer and reading, but nothing is really settling me down.

Anyone else anxious?

icymuffin • 24 August 2011 at 1:19 AM

First day back?

metaphor • 24 August 2011 at 1:22 AM

Yeah. :/
My hair is all done and everything.
I'm just not ready...mostly for social reasons. My schedule is actually pretty laid back this year (final year of high school!); I have like three study halls. And my first two classes (English 12 Honors and Spanish 4) will most likely be pretty small.
I'm just not crazy about the people...

whitefall • 24 August 2011 at 12:57 PM

@metaphor
Good luck!
Last year of school, make it a good one!

Ah, I know what you mean.
I'm super nervous about seeing some people in 8th grade. ^^;

metaphor • 24 August 2011 at 4:01 PM

It actually went pretty well today!
I have a Spanish class of four people (and that's including myself!) and several study halls.
It went just as I'd hope it would--I didn't have to be the center of attention and was just another face among many others. Hopefully it can stay that way!

dreamer • 24 August 2011 at 4:05 PM

Yeah, I definitely get it. >.<

I'm only starting sixth grade in I dunno, 10 days? The first year of middle school, thus I have to get used to opening lockers and switching classes, and being more independant. I actually got pretty good grades last year and I'm all set with homework+studying strategies, etc. But I'm pretty nervous, and there are TONS of people who could've spilled some secrets about me. I'm almost afraid to walk into that school on the first day. But I think most people have gotten over it.
Good luck, though! Make it a good last year, and don't worry too much about the people, it's usually not as bad as others think it is.

metaphor • 25 August 2011 at 12:55 AM

Ick, middle school. Well, to be fair, 6th and 7th grade were actually pretty great, considering I knew all of my teachers and had been at that same school since the first grade. Even people who never cared for me began to see me for who I was, which sounds kind of fruity, I know. But it was kind of nice. Everyone finally just kind of knew each other and tolerated one another.

But then came eighth grade, and I transferred. I feel really bad because my parents thought it would be for the best and would help be gain better social skills, but it really didn't help me at all. Everyone there treated me like the scum of the earth and criticized my every move. They made sure I was ashamed to be in my own body and that I knew I wasn't welcome. =/ I met a cool guy there, though, and we still hang out from time to time, so I guess everyone wasn't a jerk.

It all got better once I got to high school, though. I just don't involve myself in drama; it makes my life loads easier. I have school to worry about. Juggling both my high school classes and my college classes becomes a little difficult, especially when I really want to maintain my higher-end GPA. I have to start looking at colleges. I don't want anything fancy, but somewhere with a nice quiet atmosphere with a good bio and writing program, and I think I might have found the place. I'm just going to research things a little more.😊

/endrant

Good luck all!

Deleted • 25 August 2011 at 12:58 AM

Sixth grade! I am in a "sixth grade is elementary" school!

fate • 25 August 2011 at 1:04 AM

@Metaphor

Awh, well for me I've always had trouble sleeping once I started 7th grade, later on I talked to my Tech-ed teacher, he talked about how he has the same problem and that it's because he's an Insomniac. Later on I found out myself I am an Insomniac as well, I'm able to stay up for fourty-four hours awake.

School is starting for me in a few days, and I find that it'll be even more harder for me to sleep now, there's too much for me to even thinking about since I'll be heading into High School.
One thing "great" about our first day of school is, it's "Pet a Freshman Day!", I might as well come in wearing kitty ears.

Not only that, but I'll be seeing my ex-boyfriend more often.
One problem with that is I still have feelings for him, he did to.
Until I became a bad influence and...broke his heart. Because I was a total airhead then.

-Insanity-

metaphor • 25 August 2011 at 1:10 AM

@fate

Aw, let me just tell you one very obvious thing that just needs to be straightened up from the start: high school, while new and scary, is definitely not what TV shows and movies make it out to be. There are little cliques and crap like that, but usually they won't go out of their way to irritate you unless you give them a reason to...or, unless they're just that desperate for someone's reaction.😋 I had one girl like that bothering me freshman year. When I ignored her, she just went on with her business because I didn't give her the reaction she wanted. Why she bothered me, I'll never know, but she obviously really wanted my attention or reaction or something, neither of which I had given her.

So really, just go to class, talk to people, be yourself, cliche stuff like that. I know it's easy to be self-conscious and all, but chances are everyone feels the same way and so will probably not give much a darn.

fate • 25 August 2011 at 1:19 AM

@Metaphor

Most of my friends go to High School. It's just their actually the popular kind of students, so I won't have time to stop by and say, "Hey!".
I'm more nervous of having certain students in my classes. I've been keeping my distance from them since they are a bad influence among everyone in school...

1. They're younger then me by a few months and have started drinking, smoking, and -insert three-letter word here-.
2. They don't take the time in knowing others, they judge others by their appearance.
3. They harass my best friend, which one of them wishes to "Shoot her because she's a freak in society".

Not only that. I suck at Algebra.

xD

metaphor • 25 August 2011 at 1:26 AM

@chloekins

Ha, when I was in sixth grade, my class was actually the guinea pig. They considered us part of the middle school, but not officially I guess.
Still, the 6th grade was probably my best school year, followed by 7th and 11th.

@fate

I know that feeling, too.😋
There were girls in my history class last year who used a code name RIGHT FREAKING IN FRONT OF ME to talk about me (I had some "tics" that relieved anxiety, I'll just leave it at that). Uh, I'm really not stupid. >_<

And I hate pretty much everything about the way I look, haha. But I've noticed that when I walk with some sense of confidence people catch on. You just have an aura about you that says "I'm an attractive person" (though maybe not completely on a physical level) even if you don't believe it.

fate • 25 August 2011 at 1:44 AM

@Metaphor

Really? That's harsh.
Sixth grade had been a rough time on me since I was going through so many new emotions. Someone had started a rumor about me saying, "She's emo! Who ever hangs out with her turns emo!". I AM emo. EMOTIONAL. But of course people are judgemental and stereotypical.

One time I had to sit out on GYM class because of my left eye had a stye, and I had an ice pack on it, those girls I was talking about earlier had been sitting a few inches from me, (They always sit out for no reason), they started talking about my best friend and one of them said, "Haha, it's also fun talking about her right next to her best friend!"
Ugh. Of course I didn't say anything. Otherwise my other eye might've ended up with an ice pack as well.

I just follow my own style and trends. I'm not so much the in-crowd. The only thing I'm most picky about my appearance is...my hair. I cut it every few months. I'm not a fan of long hair, since I used to have amazingly long amount of hair (Down to my hips).
Especially in winter time, it's like balloons rubbing against my hair all the time.
I feel like a pufferfish when my hair goes up because of the static.

Dx

metaphor • 25 August 2011 at 1:47 AM

@fate

Yeah.
At first it upset me, but life goes on. I won't see them again once I leave school, sooo.
It only lasted for a week. Then they got bored and moved on...

I am still always accused of being some creepy loner kid because I prefer working by myself on projects. It's just how I work. I get more done. *shrug*

cafe • 25 August 2011 at 1:49 AM

I hated middle/elm. Then I got pulled out of high school for health reasons. But, my online school is nice.

fate • 25 August 2011 at 1:52 AM

@Metaphor

True that.

Ah, I find it annoying when I'm part of a group, they always forget I was part of it the next day, mostly because I'm the shy and silent type, even if I were to talk, they'd ignore me like I wasn't even there.

The only time people notice me is in art class and we have an assignment, everyone comes to me asking to be there partner only for me to do all the work, not only that, but people ask for me to do their own art homework.
But of course, I refuse.

I'm more of a partner person.
Only if I really know the person, if not, I work on my own.

metaphor • 25 August 2011 at 1:56 AM

@fate

Same here. There's one guy that I actually look forward to working with if he's in my class. Unfortunately, he rarely is, but...

And people tend to ask me to be in their group for things like English and Science.

fate • 25 August 2011 at 2:04 AM

@Metaphor

Same here, actually.

Ah, my friend and I had made a deal, I help her with LA work while she helps me with Algebra.
Which is perfectly fine with me.
If I fail too much, I'll be moving. Far far away.
Lets say, somewhere in Asia...

No kidding.

metaphor • 25 August 2011 at 2:06 AM

@fate

Lol, I'm so bad at math, it would be funny if it didn't kill my GPA.😋
I could probably have like .2 more if I wasn't so bad at it.

fate • 25 August 2011 at 2:11 AM

@Metaphor

Bahaha, I'm right with you on that one 😋
So far my best answer in math class has been..."I don't know".
Then they'd repeat it. For the billionth time.

metaphor • 25 August 2011 at 2:18 AM

@fate

Lol, I feel so smart when I just get something in math. When I can actually volunteer and answer correctly...victory!

icymuffin • 25 August 2011 at 2:21 AM

The best answer in our math is: "No solution!" when we're all stumped. It became a running joke x3

fate • 25 August 2011 at 2:27 AM

@Metaphor

Same here! Aha!
Every year we did this government test, and I've always failed, well except in sixth grade, I managed to get "Proficient" on two subjects (I don't remember, but there's three subjects in all).

Well anyways, this year I thought I had done terrible, because this year I didn't have a care in the world for that test. So I guessed, at one point I wanted to draw a giant guinea pig on it and right bellow it "Sorry, I cannot write anything here as there's a giant guinea pig in the way".

We had an assembly few weeks later about our scores, the people who've passed don't have to take the test until eleventh grade. They went through the list in alphabetical order, and I sat there with a blank look thinking, "Yup. And here I am, not even gonna get my name mentioned because I'm a complete failure! WOOHOO!".

Then they were in my name category, and still. I sat. With a blank look...
Then they said my name.
Then EVERYONE turned to look at me in surprise.
My two friends beside me said, "Shocker!".

Cx

Deleted • 25 August 2011 at 2:41 AM

@Metaphor

Have lots of fun in the final year 😃
I'm in the 7th grade (For you people whose school doesn't have grade Prep) I go to high school next year 😸 I haven't experienced high school yet but to some I've heard can be tonnes of fun and tonnes of work O.o

mangyrawr • 25 August 2011 at 2:44 AM

@metaphor Have fun trying to sleep and at school I am in the 5th grade really the 4th for me but you don't have prep at school

Deleted • 25 August 2011 at 2:48 AM

I'm going into high-school this year. I'm so scared

fate • 25 August 2011 at 2:55 AM

@Akarikitty

I'm with you on that! :c

Deleted • 25 August 2011 at 2:59 AM

@fate

*Sadly highfives* LOL

fate • 25 August 2011 at 3:01 AM

@Alarikitty

Ahaha
-Highfives sadly back-
Cx

Deleted • 25 August 2011 at 3:09 AM

@fate

Totally. So...are you at school yet? I haven't started, and I'm moving to Japan, Tokyo on Friday.