People really hate me that much? Really?

sky • 12 December 2011 at 8:19 PM

I'm in a bad mood. I know. I've been posting depressing topics but, I feel like this is one of the places where I'm not afraid to rant on. And most of the people on here are really helpful in these cases.

Again, I've been feeling excluded, but more hated. I just don't understand why people hate me so much. Is there something I don't know? Did I do something wrong to deserve all this?

Second grade my brother passed away, my friends - or what had been friends - has supported me through it. After the day of my brothers funeral I came back to school, and you know what? Everyone hated me, rumors began spreading about me while I was away in that time. I never knew what was going on and what that rumor was about, I still don't know.

I've made friends, some were good, some were bad. Two of them which have changed my life, not in a good way. I've become more and more mistrustful these days, one "friend" had sent a false message to my ex boyfriend in the time we were dating saying I was using him, he believed it and broke up with me, after she tried splitting up me and my other friends apart, she acted as if she weren't doing anything. The second had lied to me, she practically used me and before you know it, she stabs me in the back (long story).

- Continued -

fate • 12 December 2011 at 8:20 PM

Today, I feel like crap. My boyfriend had gotten beaten up on his way to school. And well, every Monday I have anime club. And mostly everyone in there hates me for some odd reason.
They claim I'm too loud, and annoying, and my friend who yells, fools around, rolls around and shouts innopropriate stuff is okay to them, but when I do it, it's not okay.

One of the kids looked at us and told my friend he wants to stab her...but for me...he wants to stab me fourty-five times.
And for what? I just wanted to show a video to my friend.

And I did something I'm not proud of me doing. I started writing stuff in my note book. That being, suicide notes.
So, I've been going to my councillor more and more these past few days.

Someone, cheer me up?

emmajjo • 12 December 2011 at 8:31 PM

im so sorry you know what alwzys cheers me up a BIG CHOCOLZTE COOKIE WITH WARM MILK!you should get a cookie...

duchess • 12 December 2011 at 8:46 PM

@sky, I'm sure that there's nothing wrong with you 😊 You seem like a good person, and if you're friends treat you badly they aren't your friends and you should confront them and just cut all ties with them.

I'm sure that there are some positive things in your life 😊 It can just be really hard to notice them sometimes.

sky • 12 December 2011 at 8:55 PM

@Emmajjo - Well, cookies and and chocolates don't exactly work with me, they actually make me more depressed for some reason. But thanks for the suggestion. 😊

@Duchess - Thank you. It's just, my friends now are good but one of them I've known since the fifth grade, and it seems like she doesn't really care about me but only herself. Today I decided I'd exclude myself from the group in anime club and some of them had wondered why I had been gloomy, but my friend said, "Oh she's just being emo, let's leave her and have some fun to get away from her depression!", and they had all went a fooled around making a huge ruckus.

One of the assignments involved me and my life, after looking at my results of my finished project, I had been disappointed. Everything I put into it - without realizing had been things involving death and just sadness.

☹️

duchess • 12 December 2011 at 9:01 PM

@sky, I used to be in the same situation. I was in a group of friends, and one of them just cared about herself, and somehow at the same time managed to make me feel really depressed. In the end I just moved groups, I was sick of being sad all the time. I remained friends with the others though, but I wasn't around her.
Actually, that sort of situation happens a lot to me. I don't really know why, but it does.

Don't be too worried about your assignment. Sometimes the way you feel at a certain point really affects what you do/what you express.

Sorry, I'm not really sure if that's helpful.

Deleted • 12 December 2011 at 9:26 PM

@sky
Uggh well at least you have friends
All I have is 1 friend
Everybody hates me
At LEAST once a day I get called VERY dirty names
I get pointed at
And even teachers hate me
I have a brother who has a disability
I sometimes even have to worry about him killing me :C
I claw my legs and arms to get rid of stress


My first "friend" pined me down and-wait I shouldn't say

She also spilled out all of my secrets and made me more hated

X.X

My suggestion is get a guinea pig
They are very social animals and they make you feel Better 😸
They can tell how you feel and they try to make you feel better C:
I have 2 now
Animals can heal people

pizza5pizza5 • 12 December 2011 at 9:29 PM

@tomboy3603

MY GUINEA PIG HEALS ME.
Shes amazing and makes me feel better
I agree
@sky

balletninja • 12 December 2011 at 9:33 PM

@sky Doesn't sound like your fault.

Sounds like life just hasn't set you on the right path.
You can A. Find friends who accept you as you or B. Conform to societies standards 😊

icymuffin • 12 December 2011 at 9:35 PM

Dun eat sweets, they make you more depressed. It gives you a false sense of happiness and when the sugar goes away, it leaves you feeling more depressed. Something like that. o_o

And yeah, as pizza5pizza5 & tomboy3603 said, animals help 😸 Big time.
If not, reach out and talk~ :]

rawrcookies08 • 12 December 2011 at 9:36 PM

@sky Wow. I'm so sorry about your brother, that must have been horrible. ☹️ and remember, no one really, truly hates you. We just really dont like you. IM JUST KIDDING IM JUST KIDDING! 😋 you are probably really nice and awesome and I dont know why you are being ignored. But not anymore! We eggcavers are here for you! 😊 *gives happy pill* YAY!! *eats a different happy pill* OMGIMSOHAPPY!!!!!!! YAYAYAY!!!!!!! Feel bettah! 😊

@fate uh oh. That stinks, I'm sorry. ☹️ don't commit suicide!!!!!!!!!!! That would make everything so much worse!!!!! Just think about it: your parents love you, so do your friends, and so do the people of Eggcave! XD just be happy!! *gives happy pill* Be happeh!!! 😊

taffy789 • 12 December 2011 at 9:42 PM

@sky - Ouch your school sounds terrible. D:
Well, depression is very hard to get out of, and very hard to overcome. It sounds like you have it.
I'm not sure what advice I can offer to you.
I myself have problems, but not as great as yours. Meaningless, even.
After hearing this, I would gladly take your place though. 'Cause then you wouldn't have to deal with it. 😊

The best advice I can offer is to look for tomorrow, for, sometimes, it's the only thing you have to look forward too. 😊
I have been depressed latly also, but have managed to keep myself from falling into totally ruin by thinking this one thought:
"Survive. Live. Show your enemies, being people, or just unfair life that WHATEVER it throws at you, WHATEVER comes your way, That YOU. WILL. SURVIVE. Because the worst thing you can do in life is give up. Because that means evil wins. If you survive, keep living, and make it though each day with your head held high..... Then you are the true master of your life, and fate.
Life is what YOU make it to be. So take a deep breath, remember that your troubles make you stronger, and LIVE YOUR LIFE. "