For Jordan

cafe • 18 February 2012 at 2:08 PM

I drew a picture of Jordan. As an angel. I tried hard on it, and actually like it. It was hard to not cry while I drew it, but I was able to finish it.

@Dawnie [Jacob]

This is for you.

http://i39.tinypic.com/21l8v1t.jpg


I drew her hair out of the lines on purpose. I tried to make her have a "glow", since she's an angel.


If you guys notice, I gave Muzai to Jacob. He made me take something for it, so I took a baby mo. If you ask him for it, you will have my wrath.

balletninja • 18 February 2012 at 2:14 PM

She was so beautiful.
Not just on the outside,
but on the inside too.

She reminds me so much of my cousin,
not on the outside but on the inside as well.
My cousin almost killed herself.
People can hide their feelings so well,
can't they?
I had no idea my cousin was doing this,
we just need to do our best to be observant
and try to heal the wounded.

cafe • 18 February 2012 at 2:18 PM

@Balletninja

I know.
She seemed so cheery the last time I talked to her..
I just. I don't know.


Whoever drove her to do this
If I get my bloody hands on him
I will...do stuff to him that I can't say on here since it's a children site.

Deleted • 18 February 2012 at 2:20 PM

@cafe beautiful I sang the song she will be loved and sent it to jacob. at the end i started breaking down so i ended the video

dreamer • 18 February 2012 at 2:20 PM

Jordan was so unique to me. We could talk to each other all the time. When I'm up late at night on the weekends, I'd talk to her for hours and hours about our life.

So many hours, so many posts, so many stories.

They're all one-of-a-kind now, because she's not here to tell them to me ever again, or to listen to anything I have to say.

Now I feel so empty. I won't have anyone to vent to, to talk to without being judged, to joke with, and to be dirty-minded with. I can't tell her the good and the bad things that happen in my life. She's supported me all the way.

Everything happens for a reason, no matter how horrible. Maybe this was the best thing for her. No matter how friendly we try to be, no one can fix a scarred heart. That's something we'll have to live with.

I will mourn forever. I've lost an amazing friend. But I know this hurts other people differently, who knew her in different ways. I hope this is a wake-up call to the people in her life who did this to her; You don't know how much you love something until it's gone.

balletninja • 18 February 2012 at 2:25 PM

@cafe
It wouldn't just be one person.
Get mad at them for being mean to Jordan.
But they didn't murder her so don't get mad at them for her death.
I want to be fair to the situation of Jordan's life even though I am biased.

cafe • 18 February 2012 at 2:28 PM

@Balletninja

I'm talking about a specific thing I know, but have no right to tell anyone it because it's not mine to tell.


I'm pissed at the people who were mean to her, and would probably slap them if I saw them, because that's how I am, but that wasn't what I was referring to.

balletninja • 18 February 2012 at 2:30 PM

@cafe

Oh I know her situation a bit also.

And don't worry, her departure will be enough of a slap in the face for them. I just wish it didn't have to be this way.

Deleted • 18 February 2012 at 2:31 PM

Thank you @Cafe

It means a lot..

This is beautiful. ❤️

scarlettsong • 18 February 2012 at 2:33 PM

@Cafe

It's beautiful... I love it. It's really pretty. It fits her perfectly.

cafe • 18 February 2012 at 2:40 PM

Thanks guys.


If you notice, there's a small wolf over her heart. It's to symbolize she had the heart of a wolf.

Deleted • 18 February 2012 at 2:40 PM

I agree with @Scarlettsong it does.

dreamer • 18 February 2012 at 2:43 PM

@Cafe The picture is beautiful. 😊

It seems like a symbol of kindness, a symbol of purity.
She was an angel, sent to Earth, and now she gets to be an angel in Heaven, too.
She is irreplacable.
She is amazing.
She had so many struggles in her life that she managed to get through, but I guess this mountain was too high for her to climb.
She is watching over us as we speak.
I hope she knows how much we all loved her. Like a family. 😊
She was like an older sister to me, and she always said that I was like a younger sister to her.
Some bonds are too amazing to throw away, even after someone is gone.

Reading over this post, I actually did tear up a little.

bunnyshadow • 18 February 2012 at 2:44 PM

@cafe Its beautiful 😊

Deleted • 18 February 2012 at 2:46 PM

@cafe it's breath-taking ;-;
I feel bad...
I haven't talked to her in so long. The last time I did was during the coma incident T.T now I can't even say goodbye☹️

Deleted • 18 February 2012 at 2:48 PM

@Dreamer I'm glad you feel that way. Because you, and Kare, are like the little sister(s) she never had. Not the ones that constantly fight and argue, but the ones that she could talk to, about anything. She told me that, once. I thought I'd let you know that.

cafe • 18 February 2012 at 2:49 PM

I don't know what afterlife she believes in, like I'm Wiccan and I believe that there are angels, pure souls who passed on and are given wings to show they're now "free", and I don't know if they're in every religion, but I could only picture her as an angel.


As a side note, I don't think every one gets to be an angel. Only the people who were kind, and tried to help others. Murders, rapist, people who harmed others, they get their own hell. People who were kind, caring, did good deed, got wings and got their own paradise.

What you do, returns to you three fold.
So, in my book, she's now an angel.

scarlettsong • 18 February 2012 at 2:54 PM

@Dreamer

@Dawnie


Eggcave will miss her so much.
I have been thinking about it all day, though I keep on forgetting that she's actually...gone... I keep on thinking "Wow, I have to show her this eventually", and then I remember.

Jordan was kind of... famous on here. A lot of people knew her and were her friends.

maineen • 18 February 2012 at 2:58 PM

I love it ^o^

I miss her loads, its kinda quiet here now

miss you dollface wherever you are ❤️

qwaszx • 18 February 2012 at 3:05 PM

@cafe It's amazing!❤️ I cried when I heard. I just can't believe she's gone. No more creepy jokes, no more dirty stories, no more saying she loved my little brother in a completely none creepy way.☹️ I'll miss her forever.
R.I.P Jordan

dreamer • 18 February 2012 at 3:05 PM

@Scarlettsong I could share the world with her. If I saw or heard something funny, I immediately thought to show it to her. She was the only person who understood every single word I said.
She changed my life. If she had never come to EggCave, I wouldn't be alive right now. You remember that, right?
She had her ups and downs, but I don't remember a single time that I argued with her. We got along with eachother instantly, we liked the same things, and I immediately knew that I could trust her. It's hard to gain my trust.

As for angels and afterlife, I'm Christian. I believe that you go to Heaven as an angel, or if you ask for true forgiveness, but if you do something horrible you're punished with hell.
As for Jordan, all she did was make me feel better about myself. She's in Heaven now. A beautiful angel now, with large, majestic wings and a golden shining halo. Watching over everyone who brought joy to her life.
I've always loved angels. They're beautiful in personality, and in looks. It makes me think of my childhood.
When I was 6 years old, I drew a picture of an angel girl, and an angel dog.
The girl had a white dress, with large wings and a golden halo, the angel dog had a bright pink flower growing on its head. :') It was adorable.
I also have a dog, and her name is Angel. She's amazing.

cafe • 18 February 2012 at 3:18 PM

When I picture angels, I think of girls wearing white silky thigh length dresses [Because it would be hard to fly if the dress is to long, lolol]

I tried to put a halo on her, but her head look smooshed, so I didn't.


We basically have the same idea
Good people = Angels
Bad people = Hell [Or, their own personal hell in my religion. Like, returned to them three fold. If someone was a rapist, they were raped for eternity. If they murdered people. They'd be murdered over and over again. You get my point]

scarlettsong • 18 February 2012 at 3:24 PM

@Dreamer @Dawnie

I remember that night. I logged on later, and sooo much commotion. For a minute I thought you were gone...
I know the feeling of automatic trust. I'd bet you were one of her closest friends on this site.
I wish I could of talked to her more recently. I used to talk to her a lot, but I ended up deleting most of the conversations, and plus, that was, like, forever ago.

And, Dani, I have the same beliefs. Though I've never heard you speak of yours.

I agree that Jordan is an angel now. Makes sense to me, she was so sweet.
I've also loved angels. Mainly the word, and the feathery wings and the glow. So beautiful and... peaceful, which is something I lack 😋
My childhood makes me think of blue sparkles on snow, but I'm getting off topic...

cafe • 18 February 2012 at 3:35 PM

@Dreamer

Dani, if you need someone to talk to, I'm always here. I'm trying to help everyone who's greiving by letting them know they're not alone.


@Scarlettsong

I had so many PMs from her
And I deleted them about a week ago
Now I was to punch a wall.


I have comments on my wall from her
They're not going anywhere

dreamer • 18 February 2012 at 3:45 PM

@Scarlettsong
I was really upset that night. So that's why I was considering to harm myself. But I thought about everything good, right before, which is why I'm still here right now. It's these beliefs and these friendships that truly saved my life.
And yeah, we have the same beliefs in lots of things, politics (remember that convo at lunch?), religion. Not many people are on the same sides. And I don't like voicing those sorts of things because I'm judged for it. But I thought it was right to talk about angels here, and I shouldn't care if people disagree.
I just think it's nice to discuss. 😊

scarlettsong • 18 February 2012 at 3:59 PM

@Dreamer

Yes, I'm the same way. I don't like being judged or stereo-typed for those reasons. The only political view I openly share is my bitter hate for ACTA, SOPA, and PIPA.

I do feel this is the right place to mention angels, though. It is.

@cafe

I feel so horrible for deleting everything. The remaining wall comments I have aren't going anywhere.