I feel like a fool.

dreamer • 25 February 2012 at 11:33 PM

@Kagirl21 It's funny. When my dad's at work, my mom watches her tv shows, and I watch some of the shows with her. My dad would hate them because of what they talk about, but they're hilarious. xD If I'm watching something on tv, my dad will come home and start quesitoning my mom. He listens to those political talk shows, and they always seem to bash the modern day. When he was helping me hook up a printer to my computer, he opened my song files and questioned all my music. Even deleted a few things. He was all like: "Oh, you wasted your money on THIS?" Or, "Oh, I don't like this singer. I don't like that one either. And this one isn't my favorite."
He doesn't like anything I like. I'm modern-day, I'm freaking 12, he's that delivery guy, country music loving, over-protective politic dad. >.<
My mom though, listens to modern, lets me watch the shows my dad hates (and the shows really aren't that bad, they're humor that my sister wouldn't understand, but I love them) and she talks to me about drama and such. X3
So I'm back and forth at home. But I'll try to be more open at school. 😊

kagirl21 • 25 February 2012 at 11:36 PM

@Dreamer Cool. XD You can say you're dad is old school. 😋

dreamer • 25 February 2012 at 11:38 PM

@Kagirl21 I told you about... What I'm doing at our dance on March 8, right? I can consider that being open about myself. I'm going for it, no matter what. ;D

kagirl21 • 25 February 2012 at 11:39 PM

@Dreamer Haha, yeah, awesome. 😊 Kayla wanted to ask someone for me but I don't know..

dreamer • 25 February 2012 at 11:40 PM

@Kagirl21 WHO!?!?!?!? *shines light in your face* I love knowing these things. xD
I'm so nervous to ask him, but I'll never have another chance. Do youthink I honestly should?... What do you think he'll say?

kagirl21 • 25 February 2012 at 11:43 PM

@Dreamer He might say yes. You should though. 😊 And I don't even though anymore Kayla said so many people. XD

dreamer • 25 February 2012 at 11:56 PM

@Kagirl21 After what Joe told me, I t hink Ben might possibly say yes. 😊 Or maybe he'll say something to me before the dance... You never know. xD

kagirl21 • 25 February 2012 at 11:59 PM

@Dreamer yeah I know. Someone just prank called me.. XD

dreamer • 26 February 2012 at 12:01 AM

@Kagirl21 Prank calls... xD I haven't been prank called in awhile. 😋 Btw, did your power go out this morning? Mine did.

kagirl21 • 26 February 2012 at 12:02 AM

@Dreamer I don't know. I wasn't home. 😋

dreamer • 26 February 2012 at 12:06 AM

@Kagirl21 OHHH. Right. I forgot. xD

kagirl21 • 26 February 2012 at 12:07 AM

@Dreamer Haha 😋 What time did the power go off?

dreamer • 1 March 2012 at 7:20 PM

@Kagirl21 Remember when I told you what Joe said? Well he lied. Andrew told me.


Ugg. Freak it. I guess I really am a fool after all.

I've wasted almost 6 months on my crush, hoping for things that I couldn't have and imagining a world and a love that will never exist.

Obviously most of the boys are drooling over the popular girls. Now I feel stupid for thinking I had any hope in the first place.

More importantly, I feel played. I'm not mad at the person who lied to me, becuase he didn't want me to be upset about the truth. I'm just disappointed in him for lying. It hurt me. ☹️

But I'm done. All of the time and energy my friends and I have wasted on this boy was all crap. I've gotten myself absolutely no where except to days where I was afraid to walk into the school, worried that someone would say something about my crush.

But you know what? He doesn't like me for who I am. And I'm not going to change just because maybe it would ruin his filthy reputation if he ever was with me.

I don't care anymore. I'm just fed up with it, and I'm done.

I'm a tomboy. I'm friends with boys. I don't need to date them yet. And I have plenty of other friends. Besides, sometimes I like being alone.

If you can't accept for who I am, Ben, then it's your loss. Either way, you missed your chance.

No more boy drama in my life. Actually, I decided to move on earlier today. I already feel so... Free...

kagirl21 • 1 March 2012 at 7:51 PM

@Dreamer Well Good for you 😊

dreamer • 1 March 2012 at 7:52 PM

@Kagirl21 I actually feel really great now. 😊 *dances around* Moving on won't be as hard as I thought it would be. XDDD It actually feels amazing.

kagirl21 • 1 March 2012 at 7:54 PM

@dreamer Hahaha, as they say in Jersey Shore...he was a grenade. XD