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dreamer • 21 August 2012 at 11:36 PM

I'm sick and tired of people THINKING that they understand me.

I say what's on my mind, and people say "aww, I understand." NO ONE, I repeat, NO ONE knows what goes on in my mind, but somehow they've convinced themselves that they do.

I don't even know why I bother posting here, because I'm just going to exceed the character limit, or SOMETHING to add to my anger.

And anyways... Did you ever think there's a REASON I act the way I do? Don't you know that yelling at me and making me feel insulted isn't helping? It's not even something you need to understand. I TELL you that all the time, but my words seem to fall on deaf ears.
Maybe I'm sick; maybe I'm depressed, or maybe I'm disorderly, or maybe I'm just terribly sick. Maybe I need help, but I won't tell you that. And maybe I'm NOT so indecisive afterall; Maybe I'm just afraid that you'll judge my choices an opinions, which you have done very many times in the past.
I swear, I can't control my actions. There's someone else controlling me... But whenever I try to say that, the words won't come out of my mouth. Instead, you act like you've been humiliated. Could you stop and think how embarassed *I* am?

Just... Whatever... I need to rant. I'm not a happy camper right now.

thepells4 • 21 August 2012 at 11:47 PM

Usually when I go to the track near my school and walk, I feel so relaxed, and so strong. But tonight, I could literally feel the weight of the world crashing down on m shoulders.

"You need to move your arms when you walk."
"EVERYONE does!"
"You can't be living this constant battle in your head."
"You need to stop being so sensitive."
"I know how you feel."
"Yes I do."
"YES, I do."
"That was so humiliating the other day."
"You're almost 13, you should be able to make up your mind."
"That's not what I mean."
"Well then why don't you just say it?"
"You're missing out, and you need to realize that on your own."
"It's embarassing, Danielle."
"Do you want to walk another lap or not?"
"Yes or no."
"You need to make up your mind."
"Do you want to walk another lap?"
"Let's go."
"Well then make up your mind!!!!!"
"We're leaving."


STOP. STOP IT BRAIN. STOP IT. I can't take it. I remember every single word he said in that conversation, including a few things I didn't want to post... How you feel so "embarassed" when I don't tell you what I want, how I'm supposed to be so strong, and how I can't live in my head, and how I need to be EVERYTHING YOU'RE NOT. I can't do this anymore, and you just don't understand... You try to pretend that you're listening to me, but I know you're not... :'(

candyluver6789 • 22 August 2012 at 12:00 AM

@dreamer

Wow.. Hmm, I cannot tell you I know how you feel or I know what that's like, Because I don't.

I, Would love to have friends, But I cannot have friends.
"Why?" People may ask, Because I may not and probably may never have friends, My parents are trying to protect me, But their just making me feel sad.

I pretty much just have about 1 friend in real life and she really never talks to me and is going to be another skinny-jeans with a lot of make-up and tight see-through shirt bratty teenager while i'm going to be a tomboy.

I can't hide being with friends and talking to people because my jerk sister makes me cry and tells my parent's who try to calm me down and just tell me it's okay, Just don't do it again, And remember, No friends.

I can't do anything with my freaking sister, She just says rude 'Sarcastic' comments and busts me whenever I try to do something other than Rollplay and Trade.

Other people have friends and talk, while I stand alone just rollplaying and trading, Do you know how THAT feels?

spirithawk • 22 August 2012 at 12:21 AM

@dreamer Life is hard, hun. But you just have to stay foucsed and remain calm. It's challenging to do that sometimes, but remember that you have one life to live and you can do whatever you like with it. There's endless possibilities that you can do with this thing called "life". Nobody can stop you from doing what you want and what you like. You have to stay strong and you'll turn out just fine. 8D Always know that you have lots of friends to talk to, here on EggCave. ❤️

Sometimes you will break down and sometimes you will cry,
But just remember that it's not a sign of weakness,
It's a sign that you've been strong for too long.

pepper_creature • 22 August 2012 at 12:53 AM

@candyluver6789

Are you serious? You're parents really keep you from having friends? How do they manage that? Do you go to highschool?

One way around that is to get a job. Jobs are the best places to make friends. And it's important to have a job, so you can rack up experience. It's very difficult to get out of college with no job experience and then go out and try to find a job. It's hard enough finding one in highschool! So, try it!

Don't forget, you're parents can't control your life forever.

Sorry you don't get along with your sister. I was like that once. then I realized what I was doing and I stopped. I'm very glad I did. Siblings make the best friends. Maybe when you two are older, things will be different. I hope so.

vampire666 • 22 August 2012 at 1:16 AM

dreamer & thepells4's posts remind me of how I feel at home.

I keep getting told that high school is the best time of my life, but it sucks. I hate it. I can't wait to get a job and a life, and when I say that, my parents just laugh and tell me the rest of life is hard and work is terrible and everything associated with being an adult is horrible. And I still can't wait for life outside of school and my parents' house.

...Never thought I'd be writing a paragraph about my own feelings, since I don't even know what they are. O_o

Anyway, dreamer, I hope your later life treats you well. Some people are meant for childhood, others aren't. Just keep working through it. 😊

xxshadowclawxx • 22 August 2012 at 1:45 AM

@dreamer

oh lord somebody is in a unhappy mood

anyways if you feel hurt than solve it by yourself I mean don't have to yell at the world if you wanna let anger do it personally don't write it here nobody gives a "imagine that swear word with the letter F" of it.

Unless if they "try to understand you" then I feel bad for them cause you are cussing at them. If you hate life blame it on yourself not those who attempt to help

dreamer • 22 August 2012 at 12:14 PM

@xxshadowclawxx

First off, I'm not cussing at ANYBODY. Did I SAY I was cussing at anybody? No, I didnt.

I'm not running around cursing the world, and I'm not saying that nobody cares. And you seriously think I'm NOT trying to solve this on my own?

And are you seriously trying to act like you've never felt sad, or ignored, or alone? Is that how you want to act? Maybe your life is working out, it's not my place to say that, but you have no idea what my situation is and you can't judge me over a few angry words.

Maybe YOU couldn't care less about my situation. Good for you. And if you think nobody cares, then why even bother ticking me off? If you say you don't care, why are you even here? I'm not leaving and I'm not blaming the Earth for my existence. I'm just not a happy person, and you can leave me alone.

And THIS, right here, is another problem. When I talk about my feelings people like you will yell at me, tell me to do deal with it on my owl, make me feel like a miserable little jerk who never feels happy. And look where THAT has gotten me.

spirithawk • 22 August 2012 at 3:28 PM

@dreamer I don't think anybody means to make you feel that way. Life is full of mistakes, hun. A man who has never made a mistake has never made anything. 😉
Did you read my other post? I hope I helped. 😊

xxshadowclawxx • 22 August 2012 at 5:03 PM

@dreamer WOW chill just advising that's all don't have to be a diva and write a gigillion things about someone being wrong if you hate it ignore it thats life okay

PS look before you respond if it doesn't help ignore if someone is being nice accept be mature about it

spirithawk • 22 August 2012 at 5:15 PM

@xxshadowclawxx SOME people here are trying to help her calm down, not make her even more mad.

@dreamer On second thought, some people here are being pretty mean. :/

xxshadowclawxx • 22 August 2012 at 5:18 PM

@spirithawk not trying to be mean I am just tellin her to not go overboard on those who help thats all 😋

Orderedchaos • 22 August 2012 at 5:19 PM

Locking this before it turns into an argument.