when death became a reality to you....

whispers • 21 September 2012 at 10:34 AM

And I forgot to post this earlier. I'm in the same situation as @toy
Diagnosed with diabetes at 4, but I'm thirteen. But I know I won't live as long as the normal person, but I'll make sure to take care of myself

ninjagirl • 21 September 2012 at 11:09 AM

Uh, I guess I shall just throw this out there.

I dont know when my dad got cancer. I was too young to understand the sheer fatality of it. I thought, hey, dad got bald and no he's got hair again.
But when I was six years old he just died. He was getting better, everyone thought he was gonna make it but he didn't.
My dad never really lived with me. I think I was two when my parents separated. But he was still always there. It was him that I got my crave for invention from, my love of animals from, my big brown eyes from. I didn't really comprehend what happened when he died for a long time after. I didn't get it. I thought he was gone and he would come back like always cus he was in england a lot. I dont know when it clicked. I dont know when I realised he was gone forever. It just happened. And it's where I got my understanding of death from. That was nearly 7 years ago now and I still miss him. I never got to fully enjoy his company. I never even got to play chess with him.

kalamadae • 21 September 2012 at 1:18 PM

When my mum died when i was 10, it put the concept of death into perspective for me... however took a great many years later to understand why it happened and that nothing i could've done would've prevented it... it wasn't something i could grasp properly at that age

nkiay • 21 September 2012 at 2:23 PM

My bff was diagnosed at 18months. 😉

@whispers

You can live a full and healthy life if you take care of your self! 😊

@toy
Just take care of your body now. 😊
BTW watched it and I freaking love ellen!

Deleted • 21 September 2012 at 3:36 PM

@kalamadae I'm glad nothing tragic happened to me when I was young.

@ninjagirl ☹️

@whispers just take care of yourself now and live everyday to it's fullest.

@ems because I have two grandpas that both died of sickness before I was born. One of them died of stomach cancer and the other had a heart attack. From the stories my mom tells me they seem funny and kind and I want to be able to see them and know them even if it's only for a short time. Then my heart would be truly at peace.

ems • 21 September 2012 at 7:37 PM

@izzfred Oh. ☹️ I'm sorry. I have a great-grandmother who died just after I was born. :/ I never really knew her... :'(

Deleted • 21 September 2012 at 7:42 PM

@ems My only grandparent is my grandma. The other grandma also died before I was born. No need to feel sorry for me. Everyone has tough times.

ems • 21 September 2012 at 7:43 PM

@izzfred ☹️

Deleted • 21 September 2012 at 7:44 PM

@ems it's not like my whole family is dead!! You don't need to feel sorry for me! Everybody and tough things in their life.

ems • 21 September 2012 at 7:46 PM

@izzfred LOL I know, but I still feel bad! 😋
It's sad when people die.... Sometimes I get scared about when my parents will die....

Deleted • 21 September 2012 at 7:51 PM

@ems me too

nroosangel • 21 September 2012 at 7:54 PM

@izzfred

My dog Snowy died right before christmas.... I didnt think she was going to go.... It was so sad because when we adopted her she was wrapped up in one of our baby blankets and it was raining. When we took her to the vet, she was wrapped up in the same blanket and it was raining :'( I felt like no matter how much fun I had, there was a deep empty hole inside my heart. :'(

vampire666 • 21 September 2012 at 7:55 PM

I've always understood what death was. It was always real to me.

Deleted • 21 September 2012 at 7:58 PM

@nroosangel my cat is getting old. I don't how I would live without him honestly. The worst mistake you can make is getting to attached to a living thing.

@vampire666 for me I would be at peace knowing that like I though death wasn't real in a way when I was young. But now that i'm older and my cats getting old it just seems like death is at our doorstep for my cat.

vampire666 • 21 September 2012 at 8:05 PM

@izzfred - Well, the last thing you should do is despair about it, because that will only cause you pain. When your cat does die, because everything does, give yourself a time of mourning, then you have to move on. Just like with people, don't forget your cat, but don't feel sad because that's the part that drives people to depression. Get a new cat too, like I did. I've been depressed ever since my parents got rid of our three cats when I was eight. Now I'm seventeen, and my depression is all but gone because we recently got two new kittens. So no matter what, try to avoid dwelling on what will happen in the future and keep yourself grounded here in the present. When you think of your cat, you should smile. 😊

Deleted • 21 September 2012 at 8:07 PM

@vampire666 thats exactly what I do. I smile because he's still as playful as a kitten and although he tires out quickly I can feel like he's young again.

ems • 21 September 2012 at 8:09 PM

@izzfred

Those who never love, never live.

😋 I just pulled that outta my butt.
The worst mistake you can make is to never love. ☹️ So don't think of it like that.

whispers • 21 September 2012 at 8:13 PM

I just found out my little sisters best friend just lost her dad to cancer ☹️
I am going to his funeral, and I'm really sad right now

Deleted • 21 September 2012 at 8:13 PM

@ems I know you can love but don't become the oh _____ is going to be here with me forever attached. I just realized what I just said is wrong. It may be hard to let something you loved go but loving was the best thing you could do because you're gonna lose it one day and won't be able to love it ever again with it staring back at you. Love now so you won't be torn when it has to pass. Right?

mib666666 • 21 September 2012 at 8:14 PM

@izzfred my cat died when i was 8 or 9

Deleted • 21 September 2012 at 8:15 PM

@mib666666 i'm 9 now and my cat is really old O_O

ems • 21 September 2012 at 8:16 PM

@whispers T^T I'm sorry.

@izzfred O.o Woah. Erm... yeah!

Heh... I think what I meant was basically if you don't ever love, you never really live, or, you never get to live life to the fullest. ☹️

mib666666 • 21 September 2012 at 8:16 PM

@izzfred yeah it really stinks. not to be unsensitive or anything but i can so imagine you getting a cat that attacks people XD (thats what happened to me he was so cute when i got him... but i still love him XD)

Deleted • 21 September 2012 at 8:18 PM

@ems I know

@mib666666 I love to attack my dad or something. Say the cats name is Misty. "Misty come get dad off of me" Dad after Misty attacks him: "Why am I in an ambulance driving in the direction of the hospital? And why do I smell blood?"

ems • 21 September 2012 at 8:20 PM

@izzfred Yah. LOL: "Misty come get dad off of me" Dad after Misty attacks him: "Why am I in an ambulance driving in the direction of the hospital? And why do I smell blood?"

Deleted • 21 September 2012 at 8:21 PM

@ems I admit now i'm kind of a tomboy. *smiles nervously*

candyluver6789 • 22 September 2012 at 12:19 PM

@izzfred
Ehh, Well, He's doing a LOT better today, but he still cannot look the other way completely.

He is a lot more active and playful, but now I'm sick. I think It might've started with my sore throat.
I HATE the medicine I have to take, the first one is like jell-o and I keep on almost spitting it out from it's HORRIBLE taste.
And the other one is Grape flavor.. Horrible, horrible horrible, it's always the grape flavor that's the worst. >.<

vespira • 22 September 2012 at 12:28 PM

I guess it was when my dog dies two years back. He was my best friend. Every time I came home from school, I'd go see him the moment I got home. I'd tell him my problems and he'd just sit beside me, listening. He never judged me and I could always be myself around him. But then he got sick and it hurt me to see him suffer everyday. Eventually he died and it was pretty hard for me.☹️

Deleted • 22 September 2012 at 12:40 PM

@charm556 when i'm sad I sometimes take my dog up to my room and cry on her and she just sits there calmly and she never leaves my side.

@candyluver6789 thats good. I know grape medicine makes me feel like puking. >.<

vespira • 22 September 2012 at 12:54 PM

@izzfred

Yeah but, my dog's dead. And I'll never see him again. I don't even have a photo...