I'm sorry for this uselessness but I needed to vent and maybe you'll listen?

whispers • 22 January 2015 at 10:39 PM

If you would rather /not/ listen to my troubled rant just go. I don't need anybody's harsh criticism to drag me down even further.

Gosh I'm in the worst of days. You know how high school is right? Stressful. Boatloads of work shoved down your throat, disrespectful teachers, never enough sleep, teachers blaming everything on you. All that stuff, yknow? Doesn't really help with you've got clinical anxiety and depression, either.

That's just where I'm about to start. I am a sophomore taking pre calculus. I am one of the four kids in my class taking it for the first time. The first clue that gives me is that it's going to be a hard class. While the kids retaking the class are flying with As, those of us who first-timers are struggling with Cs. And, even after countless hours of studying and working extra, my grade just won't go above a 76. Even when my parents //know// all the work I'm putting into this one class, they still yell at me. (Note - this is only C I have ever gotten in my life).

Call me irresponsible.

Threaten to take away my art and music (which are both very dear to me).

It is only days from finals, and here I am cramming my butt off to attempt to raise my grade to a B. I have avoided practicing my viola for the sake of my grade. I haven't sat down and truly drawn due to my grades. Without anything to relieve my stress into, I've had several breakdowns when overwhelmed. My parents? Call me a child and to suck it up.

Heh. I just can't take this crap anymore I hate it.

What makes it worse is my teachers. My biology teacher calls me out every time I make a mistake because I have the best grade in the class and should be a good role model and get everything write. My English teachers just gives everybody two hours of reading analysis, despite that she is aware of us all having finals in the upcoming days.

And my math teacher. The theme in her class seems to be that if you don't get it in the beginning, you're screwed. She is so rude when I ask for help. Basically, she's belittled me several times, and I just feel too //scared// to talk to her for help.

I'm just so //done// with everything right now.

Sorry for my unconventional rant I just needed to let it out.

Sorry. yeah.

I'll just go.

lykhaos117 • 22 January 2015 at 11:52 PM

@whispers

First off, I hope everything gets better for you.

I can't pretend to know everything about your situation, but you deserve to know that I do care. *hugs*

This advice might not work, but in biology class, try to help other students when they make mistakes. This will not only help others but also draw your teacher's attention to more of your positive qualities. That may take his/her mind off of the times you make mistakes. Plus, teaching others may help you retain more information.

For English, work on some of the reading at lunch if you have any additional time.

For math, find a student who has an A and have him/her explain the material to you. If that doesn't work, watch some tutorials.

As for your parents, make it obvious that you're studying so that they're aware that you put a lot of effort into your grades. Then, they might be nicer to you.

I really hope this helps. Good luck. *hugs*

Deleted • 23 January 2015 at 12:02 AM

@whispers

All da feels, man ;-; All de feels...

I completely understand a good majority of this, the math, math teacher, and parents thing, especially since I've gone though something similar.

I'll start with math since that's the thing you touched on first. My feelings on math... It just needs to burn in hades ^^; I'm not at all good at it and don't understand without a TON of help. In highschool, and especially now that I'm in college, the C I passed with was a blessing and, like you, the one I got in highschool was my first. I was even proud of it, but mostly because I'd survived the class ^^; I thank my friends for it, since they were the ones who were patient with my stubborn butt while they were helping me with math. I'd say to ask your parents for help here, but they're a wall -.- maybe friends could help? O-o or a student in class who is nice and passing? Maybe a teacher you do trust, even? I had one who let me switch into her class since the one I was in previously had caused an emotional breakdown .-.

With your parents, I totally get this, too o-o since I'm actually an adult now, though I'm still living with my parents for the time being, I've actually had to put my foot down several times to stop them from taking my important possessions (phone for work purposes, books, music ._. If they'd threatened my art, I don't think I'd be living here ^^; I'm also kind of in charge of the affairs of my pets because of this, but that's another story) but before this, my parents never truly encouraged me to strive for what I wanted. I loved to sing, still do, was shot down when I wanted to do something with it. Wanted to do something with my art, shot down as well. I've even come to realize my mother is quite possibly just slightly verbally abusive o-o and when it came to things that I actually brought to them for advice, they said the exact same thing your parents have said to you: suck it up < this actually will tie into the teacher thing because it's what my mom told me and I actually listened for a time .__. I'm to the point here that I kind of just do my own thing and leave them to theirs. I don't think you could do this, though ^^;

Now for my teacher thing ._. Holy shite, the teacher thing e-e first things first, I'm not the most open person with most people until I get to know them. I could be equated to a mouse. I'm small, quiet, and don't really gel to most people, so I tend to just stay in my own bubble (unless people push me. Then it gets bad ._.") There have been a total of maybe eight teachers who have popped the bubble and gotten me to truly participate and for most of them, it was after I'd had them for a semester or two, so I knew them a little better and they knew me. This teacher is not one of them. He was my teacher for psychology and specializes with victims of sexual trauma (yet he won't deal with a normal, not traumatized student -.- problem much?) Before teaching psychology, he taught a criminal justice class and caused them all to fail. All of them, so it was not at all the students. With my class, we were all headed in that direction as well. Not a one of us had above a C with the lowest grade I had heard being a 59, if memory serves. He had told us at the beginning to take our problems to him through email, so we all tried that, but he would never respond. So the day he gave papers back, I took the paper he had given me up to him because he claimed I never turned in it when it was right in my hand. I calmly and politely tried to tell him, hey, this is x assignment that you gave us and was cut off, didn't get a chance to finish. His exact words were I won't discuss your grade in front of the class. So I told him okay, I'll wait til after class and again, was cut off before I could finish. He said no, send him an email. I pointed out that he didn't respond to emails when we needed him to, and for the third time, he cut me off and said send me an email and I respond appropriately. I have never been so angry in my life. I literally sat in my chair and held back tears because I was not about to let him see how I felt. I made it to the car and lost it. This was breakdown number one. After that, the entire class went to the dean, found out this same situation with the same teacher had happened before, but nothing was done because he had a friend back him up. Well, the most that came out of this was a second chance. It was good until I was told that, for one assignment we had, he was supposed to consult the librarian to make sure all of his students could find what they needed. He did not do that, so most of the class, me included, couldn't get what we needed. I did the very best I could do and turned it in. When it was given back, he had left comments on the paper that I didn't feel we're appropriate or necessary and it made me angry again. Emotional breakdown number two. It is, in part, my fault for listening to my mother when she convinced me to stay, so I don't place all of the blame on him, but after that I dropped the class. I couldn't take another breakdown. I heard later that he had a student who went up with her assignment and presented 4 slides fr a minute or less. She was told good job. Another went up and presented a total of 30 slides for four minutes. He grilled her directly after and told her she'd be lucky to pass just because she didn't turn in something beforehand. So in response, she showed him the graded assignment with his signature on it. He accused her of forgery. This student sent him an email that day that listed her issues and everything and asked for an explanation. His only response to her was no. So if your teacher does intimidate you that badly, I wouldn't deal with her either o-o I'd find someone you truly trust and maybe take a break from all of it. I know that if I were in your shoes, I'd have snapped and given them all my two cents by now ^^;

So, yeah, I can relate 😊 so don't feel too bad, cause I don't blame you for the way you feel and, if nothing else, I am here if you need me. I just hope this helps at least a little bit ^^; and I really hope things get better. Just hang in there for a bit longer. That C might be the greatest thing you'll ever get 😉

werewolf • 23 January 2015 at 12:30 AM

@whispers
Hope things come out for the best

Also just a tip for maths I tend to find teachers who weren't good at math are the best for explaining it and showing you handy tricks on how to do it

You should give these crash course videos a try they helped me
Link(There on YouTube) http://m.youtube.com/user/crashcourse