Sad D:

briseis • 24 September 2011 at 10:03 PM

I've been told that I'm the ugliest girl and school, and looking at myself right now I am D:. How am I going to face going to school Monday? I didn't realize I looked so bad xD. Maybe it's just that epiphany kind of thing.

dreamer • 24 September 2011 at 10:05 PM

@Briseis Don't listen to those people! People are jerks. :/ Everyone's beautiful in their own way. 😉

cafe • 24 September 2011 at 10:09 PM

... Cuse' me, my shot gun needs to go for a walk.

briseis • 24 September 2011 at 10:11 PM

@dreamer, everyone has internal beauty, but outside...I just have none ;").

@cafe, what do you mean by that...?

cafe • 24 September 2011 at 10:19 PM

@briseis


....Nothing...

//Whisles//

briseis • 24 September 2011 at 10:20 PM

@cafe are you saying you'd shoot me? xD Maybe that'd be a good idea!

cafe • 24 September 2011 at 10:23 PM

-.-

No
Them
I'd shoot them
For what they said

sotheavey • 24 September 2011 at 10:25 PM

@briseis
That just breaks my heart ;~; Why don't people understand how much words hurt.... You can never be ugly. Only beautiful.

briseis • 24 September 2011 at 10:25 PM

@cafe oh, I see xD. Well shooting both sides would be a good idea. Me and them. Although they're mostly nice people.

@sotheavey I'm definitely pretty ugly! Inside not at all, but the outside...xD

cafe • 24 September 2011 at 10:28 PM

Pfft
They aint nice if they have the audacity to call someone ugly


You're only as ugly as your intentions

Good - Beautiful
Bad - Ugly

You can't be ugly by looks, in my books, unless you're a snivly ungrateful little brat

briseis • 24 September 2011 at 10:30 PM

They are nice people to most, just not to me. Which is understandable.

Good=beautiful, yes, but...well, being unpleasant physically makes life really hard, especially since I'm female D:. Some people can't even tell I'm female, or at least that's what they say. But I can kinda understand that too.

sotheavey • 24 September 2011 at 10:30 PM

@briseis
Ugly only exists on the inside and not the out.... Beautiful exists on both. Those people who said that may seem "nice" & beautiful and whatever outside but they are ugly inside.

briseis • 24 September 2011 at 10:32 PM

@sotheavey there are definitely beautiful people with ugly insides but they seem to have much better lives than people like me. But you know, that's kinda expected isn't it?

sotheavey • 24 September 2011 at 10:35 PM

@briseis
Life is diffcult these days and it will and always has been D: It's just you need to have confidence in yourself & be proud of who you are instead of having people "calling you ugly" which you are not. U.G.L.Y = U. Gotta. Love Yourself

cafe • 24 September 2011 at 10:38 PM

No
It's not
You need to stop acting like physical appearance classifies something.
Like because if someone isn't a super model, they're expected to be treated badly
WERE NO ONE SHOULD BE TREATED FOR THEIR LOOKS
I don't care what ANYONE says. No one has the right to make someone else feel like they're worthless because they don't like how they look.
OJOSFJSODJSO
NO
NO
NO
NO
It's not right
From elementary through middle, I was treated like dirt. I was oinked at, had food thrown in my hair and told to "eat it", had people trick me into looking like a fool
And you know what?
I'm beautiful
I felt ugly, until I stopped listening to people and actually looked at myself
You're beautiful
Beauty is only in the eye of the beholder. People can say you're ugly, but someone somewhere thinks you're the more gorgeous person in the world.
You need to stop saying you basically deserve to be treated like dirt
YOU DO NOT
And anyone says otherwise, they can call me and disagree with //me//

briseis • 24 September 2011 at 10:38 PM

@sotheavey I try to be confident...normally I am, it's just that everyone else is so much prettier than me 😃. That's why I feel like I should be homeschooled. I don't belong in regular society. That's why I want to go to South Dakota for college. It's got only got 750,000 people and it's mostly rural. I can hide away from other people and not have to be seen.

metaphor • 24 September 2011 at 10:41 PM

@briseis

Wow, really? =/ People are mean and often very insecure themselves, so I wouldn't take it to heart (especially in middle school and high school). But I KNOW it's hurtful. Trust me, I've been here. I've spent hours trying to look good only for it to feel like a waste of time because people told me I wasn't good enough. I was hurt for weeks and it still kind of makes me have bad days sometimes, but you know what, I don't have to see these people ever again.
I'm sure you're beautiful, and I feel like a hypocrite trying to tell someone this with so much confidence when I don't believe it one bit about myself, but I can look at just about everyone and see beauty (and the exceptions are the people who have to put others down. REALLY IT'S TRUE. The meaner someone is, as physically beautiful as they might have once seemed, the more you begin to see the flaws in their appearance. Funny how that works.)

It's not worth spending hours beating yourself up for not being the "hot chick" all the guys want just as a quick play thing--which proved to be the case most of the time in middle school and even now in high school. And maybe I am saying this out of jealousy, I don't know. I'm not going to pretend I'm completely confident in myself because I really am not. But I know everyone deserves to be because you are beautiful.😊

sotheavey • 24 September 2011 at 10:49 PM

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9D0nLjYMYTw

You are not the only one that thinks your are not "pretty"

Everyone has their insecurities, but it shouldn't stop the ways we think of ourselves. Sure people will try to poke & push around the insecurities, but that is when the parts of us that are beautiful and confident come out and say that is enough!

(see song above. sorry it's in Korean though. I speak korean so I mostly listen to korean music e.o)

metaphor • 24 September 2011 at 10:51 PM

@cafe

Ugh, I hate people like that. =/
I have a friend who's kind of on the heavy side and people used to tease her relentlessly ( it's kind of calmed since I think we're all old enough to understand that people come in different shapes and sizes, but there is still the occasional jerk who has to make his comment known). Well, this girl is probably one of the most beautiful people I know. She is bubbly and confident in herself and is very forgiving of others, even of me because at one point I was kind of nasty to her (I was mad at her, for something stupid). And she has clear skin, like it's clean and smooth and she rarely breaks out at all. And I complimented her hands and fingers on Friday because seriously, I envy!

evolutary • 24 September 2011 at 10:52 PM

@briseis ...That's horrible. I can't believe they actually said that. But, you know, like the others said, who CARES about physical appearance? It's not fair to people, especially to girls. 'You have to act lady-like' 'you have to look pretty'. Don't believe in that b-.

I had to do an impromptu speech on 'Our appearance doesn't matter, it's the inside that counts'. That was a good coincidence because that's what I always thought. My teacher (who usually hates me), said 'Well done! Well done!'

You are beautiful in the inside, 'Smile, because you are beautiful in every way possible' (quote made up by my sister😊). Beauty is only skin-deep. You know, my school had this night where people would show what they made in school. Some girls wore make-up. I don't mind if they put on a little, but it was sort of overkilled because it was only a minor thing.

Plus, I've never worn make-up in my life.

briseis • 24 September 2011 at 10:55 PM

@metaphor I get up at around 6:30...and I don't have to be at school until 9:00. I spend over an hour trying to find clothes that look good on me. Sometimes I'm even late to school because I just can't find anything. It just seems like all the other girls at school are perfect (which they are) and I have to struggle just to find clothes that make me look normal. It's hard. I know what it's like to spend hours trying to look good and it just doesn't work.

I know guys only like pretty girls, which is why I want to be one. I don't want to be a toy, but I can't even get a boyfriend and I'm 17. I've only dated 5 days in my entire life...how pitiful is that? I'm going to graduate from high school not having dated really anyone. In college I expect the same treatment. Why would college be any different?

@sotheavey I'm not sure there is anything good about me on the inside either. There is DEFINITELY nothing good on the outside, and most people know it. I'm just not that amazing inside either. I don't have much going for me as a human being. That's why I want to hide away in the mountains and not have to be seen.

cafe • 24 September 2011 at 11:01 PM

@briseis

I'm 16
Never had a boyfriend
I don't even know how to kiss
But that doesn't matter


And because college people grow the **** up and don't treat others like trash based on their looks.


Sorry for sounding so mad, you brought up a lot of ill memories for me xD

briseis • 24 September 2011 at 11:03 PM

@cafe I'm sorry, I didn't mean to hurt your feelings. I'm 17 and I've never kissed either. I wouldn't know how to. Next March I'm going to be an adult and I won't have had any experience at all. I'm not sure any guy would want that in college...

angel_star • 24 September 2011 at 11:04 PM

@briseis

don't worry. All the girls in my class already have match ups, I'm the only one who doesn't except for someone else who never talks.

briseis • 24 September 2011 at 11:05 PM

@angel_star, yep...I'm one of the few (like 10 in a school of 3060 people) who hasn't dated or who doesn't have a boyfriend currently. It's pitiful D=

sky • 24 September 2011 at 11:07 PM

I hate how people judge others by their looks and not by their personality, that's how it is over in my school, they wouldn't give the time in knowing someone if they never met, they'd just judge by their personality. Which goes for me, I'm ugly compared to them so they don't bother with me.

I did have relationships then but, one of them had been complicated since we were best friends and being in a relationship made everything awkward, he'd also been my first kiss, but now we're just best friends.

Not only that, I'm short, so they don't notice me anyways.

xD

briseis • 24 September 2011 at 11:08 PM

@sky I'm very big-boned, wide-shouldered and just overall large. I'm so ugly and awkward compared to everyone else. That's why I'm hoping to move to the middle of nowhere for college...then people wouldn't have to see me. It's best for everyone that way, even if I never get to date or marry or have a family.

metaphor • 24 September 2011 at 11:09 PM

@briseis

They're not perfect, though, and I guarantee you that just about half of them know it. They wake up every morning hoping that they can hide every flaw just right. It's just that you have so little confidence in yourself that everyone seems like a goddess compared to what you see in the mirror. I know this feeling, I really do.
And I'm 18, and honestly...I just got my first kiss not even a year ago. =/ And I suck at relationships. I'm insecure and unstable when it comes to relying on another person. Everyone is different, though! I'm not exactly a hot thing, but people have taken interest in me once I've talked to them a little. And that's the thing, I'm quiet. I don't have the charisma to attract people to me when I'm having a "Plain Jane" day, so I just kind of sit back and look unsure. When you go in with a negative attitude, it shows in your face, your posture, everything, which in turn gives off a certain vibe to people that you don't take pride in yourself. And the natural response seems to be, "Well, if you don't value yourself, why should we?"
I'm not saying it's right, it just seems to be human nature. Beside, it does feel good when you can just walk outside and feel beautiful even if you are suffering from a bad acne spell or a horrible hair day, but I know that takes confidence. I know it. But the older you get, the more you begin to realize--if not reluctantly--that most of the people who are worth your time don't really give a darn.😊

sky • 24 September 2011 at 11:13 PM

@Briseis - You sound like my best friend. She says the same exact thing, but to my view she's not what anything she says.
But people pick on her because she's a 'Freak' when they haven't even said one word toward another.

One of the girls even said, and I quote, "She's such a FREAK! I want to shoot her for being a freak in society!", I was sitting right next to them and they all laughed, afterwards one of the other girls said, "You know what's even better talking about that freak? Saying it right in front of her best friend!"

I wanted to drop kick them. Punch them. Stab them. etc.
But of course I didn't. Especially since I looked pretty pathetic sitting on the bench in GYM class with an ice pack to my eye.
Long story.

briseis • 24 September 2011 at 11:15 PM

@metaphor hmm, I don't think it's really that. But I do believe everyone else is prettier, simply because I look way different than them. I'm big and wide (not exactly fat; I'm 147lbs and 5'7'' but I want to be around 135 by my birthday) and I have no real feminine features. I'd love to look like one of them but I can't, no matter how hard I try.

I'm a quiet person, but I'm not shy. It's just my body is so awkward and big and my face is so unattractive that it's hard for me to attract anyone's attention, especially a guy's. They never look at me in the face because it's just so unpleasant. I can understand that, though. I don't value myself but I have my reasons. Again, that's why I want to move away into the woods or the mountains and spend the rest of my days in isolation. That'd be the best option for me.